day 4

so its day  four of no atkins. i'm missing them big time. isnt that silly?i'm thinking about them a good portion of the day. its not even 10am and i'm thinking about them.
im home right now due to my car dieing. arggggg AAA had to tow me and now i'mwaiting for the repair man's report. possible thermostat or radiator. i'm hoping whatever it is its cheap. don'tyou know i just got imcome tax and a small amount saved and bingo something goes wrong. it always happens that way!!!
the good thing is i'mhome with my missing atkins and there aren't any in sight. i do have other healthy foods to eat but i'm not hungry and i'mwatching the clock before i eat again so that i don't eat too soon. i think if i start that then i'm fixing one addiction with another.
i do have to say tht the LBS is bothering me. i'm not hungry and i've just eaten less than an hour ago so i'm wondering if its a my bodies way of saying it misses the atkins too. does that make sense? would my body go through a withdrawal for something like an atkins bar? i was eating 4 to 5 of them a day. thats a tremondous amount of calories that are all extra.
weight wise i've not lost anything still the same.
still i can't help but think that dropping almost 1000 calories a day will make a difference.
yes i'll need to add healhty right things but not 1000 calories of them.
once i conquer the atkins addiction then its time to correct my calorie intake.
per my doctors endo and naturalpathic i need to have an intake of 1600 and up to 1800 if i am excersizing regularly. with the atkins i was well over 2000 i was shocked when i tracked it. i wasn't thinking clearly at all and did't realize how much over i was. i always kept track of what i ate but man the calories add up so fast.
i was very surprised because i kept track of everything but obviously i wasn't thikning clearly and tracking as well as i should have. all i can say is that the LBS had its strong hold on me. the fears of having an episode (which i still fear) made me eat much more than i needed.
its always a learning thing right?
I want to get through day 4 with flying colors.
how long does it take to change a bad habit?
how long does it take to fix an addiction?
i think its a constant thing.

its almost 1 and i've done very well without my atkins bar so far for this day. i do have a headache an again i think it is due to my body coming off of whatever it is that i love about those stupid things.
my calori count is the best that it has been in a very long time. at this point i'm at 700 calories and have had my breakfast, snack, and lunch. next snack will be around 2:30 usually by now i've had alot more calories.
when im at my high stress job my LBS spikes an drops quicker because of th adrenaline. so during the daytime i'm eating more in less time. i'm working on that as i get stronger.
but the big thing for me is i've almost made it to the end of day 4 without ATKINS!!!!
rEENIE i know you understand with your addiction to m&m's

im having a hard time without the atkins. the only thing saving me right now is htat i'm home without a car.
its had me doing alot of thinking about this addiction thing. i'm stressed about work, car troubles, and relationship. of course because i'm not at work and busy with that i've had too much time thinking and stressing about thingds so that i just really do think that this whole business of having hard time today especailly without atkins is due to the stress. i'm a stress eater.
im having my regualr healthy snack right now and hopefully that will apease the atkin monster.
arggggg

Yes, yes, yes - I so can understand what you're thinking and how you're feeling. I wish I could do something to help ease this - and I really do consider this torture, it certainly is for me. A pressure that builds and builds and builds until I literally can't stand it anymore. Try, Pam, to find some other way to alleviate the stress. Take a bath, take a walk, write a poem, take a nap, anything to redirect this energy. You're not alone. Maureen

thanks reenie, i made it through day 4 and 5 they say if you can go for 2 weeks you've got a good chance of kicking a bad habit. smoking was easier to quit!
it helps that the thing that i am addicted to isn't readily available. like at work they aren' tanywere in sight if it was m&m's like yours it would be so much harder cause they are all over the place at work.
my car is still in the shop i won't have it bac****il next week so for the weeknd i am save from atkins.
now i'm working at being sure to not over load on something else instead. i have plenty of grapes and am grabbing those  when i thik about it. im chewing lots of gum but then again i've always done that.
today wasnt as bad as yesterday.
im tired its been a rough week. way to  much snow. iv'e got to conquer my driving in snow fear.