Popping In

Thanks Judy and Pam, I really appreciate your friendship and I'm sorry if I've caused you any worry. It's all good. I guess I'm grappling with viewing myself in the context of this board - we all found ourselves here for the same reason, the one common denominator that bonded us - morbid obesity and in some instances (my own certainly), super-morbid obesity. I wonder how others on this board found themselves so fat so as to seek weight loss surgery - certainly I am not the only one who has used food in a harmful way - that's how people get fat, overeating... compulsively overeating in my case. So while I may look to the outside world as someone who is relatively healthy and normal-sized, I find myself once again tortured in my head about food - it doesn't even matter what the food is... I'm not crazy. I'm not bipolar, I'm not unstable - I am addicted to food as a substance that on some deep unconscious level I believe helps me feel better. It doesn't and it never has. But I know I am not the only person here who has this relationship with food. And I am fighting hard to turn this around. That's all.  That's all I have to say. Except thanks again for your friendship, dear ones. Maureen

I, too, am addicted to food. When something hurts me or my family, the first thing I do is eat carbs. When I'm in my carb mode, that is all I eat!  And it makes me feel so good! When I eat strawberry cheesecake, I am sure I get the same high a dope addict gets. I can take one bite and it feels good all the way down to my stomach. I've been on the carb trip now for several days, but tomorrow in Monday and I'll start over again..   Love ya, Judy

Reenie....one day at a time...when you feel like youve fallen remember tomorrow is another day and pick yourself back up...small steps...but dont be defeated...think for every bad day..there is a good day too. You'll be ok...I know you will, remember dont let slip ups bombard your head as failng...you have not failed, I know sometimes it seems that way. Allow yourself treats now and then...sheeesh I do or Ide be a mess...its normal...we would all be liars if we said we didnt crave things sometimes...but you control it..dont let it control you, I know easier said then done.. Maybe...just a thought, allow or get it in your head that two days a week you can eat whatever you want...anything...it might help the other days when you cant, knowing you have those two days you can...worth a shot ...Ive done that..it does help me. But Reenie...KNOW we are all in the same boat and we are all here for you and wish you the best in fighting this food demon.

Oh and PS...I did log that week I just havent had the chance to send it to you but I will this week.

Kimberly