Never Though I'd See This Day Again

I am binge eating; out of control. I truly never thought I'd see this day. Gaining fast. Am so defeated. I guess once a fat girl, always a fat girl. It's not the body that tells the world the size you are; it's the mind. Scared and alone - Maureen

You are not alone!!! I'm here for you!! You are just going through a rough time right now. Tomorrow is a new day and you will start over, You have done so good keeping your weight off and you know what to do and you will do it again!!  I was looking at your pictures a few days ago and I am so proud of you, you look GREAT!!  So don't give up!!  Love ya, Judy

Maureen - STOP this insanity right now!!! What are you doing? Get back to basics - however it is you do that - I'm not sure - but please don't give up on yourself - you've come too far for too long. Are you seeing a counselor? If not - you need to make an appt. ASAP and get to the the root cause of this because there is more to it that "once a fat girl" - you are not a fat girl - you are a healthy vibrant inspirational woman! Journal your foods, plan your foods, empty your cabinets - do whatever it takes.... go to OA - do something different - you've been frantically posting that you are having issues for several months now - asking for help, looking for answers and whatever is happening here on OH isn't enough for you - so it's time to try something different - if that doesn't work - try something else - but don't give up!

You can eat really awesome food without blowing it! I just had Pseudo cheesecake that was unfreekinbelievably good - SF cheesecake pudding mix with greek yogurt!

Get into cooking - there are some incredibly creative people who have come up with the most amazing dishes that even "normal" people would salivate over - honest!!

Check out these two for instance:
http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/
http://rjsdadrecipes.blogspot.com/

Please don't give in or give up! I (and many others) care!

Listen to Tammy. you need stronger help than just us. We are all rooting for you.

Maureen, we have been over this time and time again.....you need to see a counselor who specializes in eating disorders and maybe even food addictions.  Is it possible that you are bipolar?  Have you ever had any psychological testing?  There is NO shame in this.  Get yourself psychologicially checked out.  Find out the reason for the behavior....not what YOU think the reason is, but what a professional thinks it is.  Stop beating yourself up and get help.  You deserve to be happy and healthy...both physically and mentally.  Just take care of yourself.

Joanie