Been Thinking About You All

Where has the summer gone? I hope all are well and for those of us who are having a difficult time, God speed in feeling better and living life fully and healthily. I am trying to focus on what matters - taking care of myself so that I can take care of my family. I won't go into the dreary details of my daily woes and worries - we all have them - but in terms of the common denominator that keeps us around this Board, I struggle with the food. Pam and Connie have been talking about issues that point to serious consequences from the surgery. I haven't had my blood worked up in some time so they both have inspired me to do so - I hope everyone else does so as well. We need to know how healthy we are. Or aren't. What I'm struggling with mightily is how little I eat and yet I find myself gaining. I've hovered around 160-163 now for the past 6 months - and no matter how hard I try, no matter how little I eat the right things, I can't lose any weight. And if I so much as eyeball something that is "off limits" I swear, I've gained a pound. This, I believe, is also a serious consequence - not only of the surgery but of my pre-surgery life, wherein I lived in a Super Morbidly Obese Body for nearly 4 decades. My metabolism is shot. My body just doesn't know how to respond to anything anymore. So I struggle. I hate the way I feel, I hate the way I look - I think I felt and looked fit and healthy for about 5 minutes during this journey. Now, I fight with everything I have but am losing the battle. I am not griping or complaining - I am identifying a problem that I am not able to fix. And that bugs me Big Time. So just wanted to drop in and say hi and send my best wishes to everyone. Would be great to see how many of us can stop in to say hello as well. Take care, all. M.

I wondered where the heck you were.  I'm around here little enough, we can't both be gone.  :)

This was a crazy day for me.  I was at the chiropractor at 7:30, spent an hour and a half being tortured then drove across town to pick up a friend and drove down to Tucson for her Chemo.  There was a wreck on the road that had traffic backed up for hours.  I barely screamed into work in time at 6:00 and got off at 10:00.  All I ate today was a handful of peanuts and raisins and about an ounce of summer sausage.  You know what?  I will not have lost an ounce.  I have no idea what it will take to lose weight. 

My pcp just thinks it's a matter of eating less and moving more.  I don't think it's that easy for us or we all would weigh 92 pounds.  I want to pinch that man.

I'm with you, Maureen.  I think our metabolisms are in the toilet.

Hugs,
Connie

The other wierd thing for me is how the weight is coming back on - most is settling in my thighs and I can't tell you how awful my legs look. Even in pants, I can see the contour of the extra fat and sagging skin; I notice people are looking down at my thighs when we're supposed to be having a conversation. My legs are horrible looking. Anyone else notice this is going on for them as the weight is creeping back on? I miss you, Connie. M.

I've missed you!!  I know I wasn't on here  for a couple of months, but now I check everyday to see if you've checked in. I going to try to post at least three times a week because I see how hard it is to get on here and nobody else is here.  Pammy and Marlyn and  I have tried to keep each other going.  We need you and Connie and all the gang to help us!! Love ya, Judy

Hi Reenie!
my legs have been shot ever sense i lost the weight. they were big to begin with then with what i lost they just look like cottage cheese. it bothered me alot but this year i said to heck with it and actualloy put a bathing suit on and went to the beach!
when i got there i was embarressed adn kept walking with my head down figureing everyone was staring at my legs.
what a surprise when i looked up and not one singl eperson was looking at me! they were looking at those cute little young bikini clad babes! Thank god!
let me tell you i saw alot of of peoploe thre who looked a heck of alot worse in their suitsl including the some who had on two piece bathing suits *****ally had no right to be on display like that but hey they were having fun at the beach so who am i too judge?
as long as they weren' tlooking at me i was happy. so i sat and people watched! it was great.
there was a family in front of me with two little ones o what joy they were having such a great time it really took me many years back when mine were little. i'd love to visit that time even for just an hour.
i'm so glad i went.

i bought  anew bathing suit at a consignment store it was brand new with the tags still on it origianlly it was a 75 suit i paid 3.50 isn't aht awesome???
and it had tummy control in it too!
 

HI Reenie,
 Welcome Home!! I for one disappear at times & Connie is right, we need to stick around for each other. I get down & think no one cares what I post, but, usually find
that is in my head only & ppl do miss me & come back. So keep posting, we love
you around here. Your info & concern does matter!! For sure get that blood work
done & soon. I have lots of medical stuff going on right now, that I will post later on,
so for sure get that blood work done to see where you are on it!! That could be
answers to a lot of stuff. Hang in There!!

Our little core is what keeps us all going. When Marilyn Reenie, Judy, Karen Connie O lord I know I can't remember each of the names but anyone who we'd touched hearts with here we remember their stories.
the guys Mike and that cop guy dowg I thnk aobut them and wonder how they are doing.
when they do not post we are curious as to how their feeling whats happening in their lives. I know each of us is thrilled when they stop for a minute.
I'm like you Marilyn when I dont' post and I' mjust lurking and i don't see a comment about gee wheres pam I thnk does it matter if I write? but just because I've not read anything about me does not mean that I'm not thought of.
For sure when I do post I am thrilled with the replys it makes us feel good caus we are talking with others who know right were we are with our lives. We dont' hve to go back and rewrite everything casue we all remember.
we are family.
i was thrilled you were able to be close to a computer again!
yea for all of us!