Been Hiding again- I'm Back!!

HI All
 Been hiding again, kinda been in a funk that I can't explain. just been hiding from the world &
all of my boards the past couple of weeks. Just needed to get a clue where this life is headed.
Still don't know!! Still not working & still don't have any prospects. I will catch up on stuff over the
day & just let you know I am back & will try & updte you on the life struggles.
I get into this state of no one caring or reading my stuff, so I just step back & go away for awhile.
I know it is just ME, but, also dealing with a lot of stuff of late ( some of the old stuff) trying to
re-surface & not real well, either.
Gald you are all doing well & Connie I hope you are feeling better & good luck with your
up coming back surgery. I did read that one.
Take care all.
Big hugs

HI Marilyn,

its good to see you back!
we all sometimes need to step back for a while. I do it too. soemtimes i',m reading what people are writting and i feel their pain or happiness but just am so involved in my own termiol that i can't reply. then when i feel better i come back. is that how it is for you too?
Hope you get things worked out. I know you will you always reach deep inside yourself and pull that stength up out into the open.
there are times it has helped me to read what you've done and work at myself.
take care, god bless, pam
i remember when you were the bear lady!

Thanks!! It has been a very rough 6 - 8 months & a lot of it is my fault, so I should not complain,
but I am very tired of it!   I have been trhu lots before & will survive this, too!!
I really think the job thing is about to break & will have one soon. That
will help so much of what is going on that I can't even tell you how much.  Here's hoping & Praying for that to be the first miracle to happen.
There is soooo very much going on that I can't & won't even post on as it just stirs up too much
crap around here. So I have learned ( about time) to keep my mouth shut on some of it.
I just get crazy some times. I have let go of some of it, still working on other parts, still!!

Marilyn, I pray that you get a job real soon!!  I have worked as a school nutriton manager for 26 years. I am 61 and I know how very blessed I am. Jobs are so hard to find now. But it does seem to me that things might be getting a little better. As far as the other stuff you're dealing with, I hope that things will better soon.  Judy

Thanks Judy. I will be 56 in December & I know I am not the only one out of work. My neighbor
has been looking just as long as I have.  With new grads out there it makes it even harder being
in the older generation. NOw that  the Walmart freeze is off, I am really trying to get back on with
them. We will see!! Keep those prayers headed this way. I accept them all.

Thanks, Marilyn.  I'm so glad to see you.  I was just thinking about you yesterday and wondering where you were.  Life gets very hard from time to time and all we can do is hang on until we see better times. 

I think I had a little melt down myself yesterday.  I had gotten an epidural in my neck on Thursday and hit the pain wall on Friday.  Of all things to put me over the edge...  foot cramps.  Go figure.  After I got over my foot cramping, dumping, pain in the neck melt down, I got up and gave he dog a bath at midnight.  Wonder why I'm tired.

Hang in there Marilyn.  Things are bound to improve.  Have you thought about volunteering somewhere like a hospital?  Sometimes getting out and volunteering leads to networking, meeting new people and maybe a job offer.  You might also want to try the Humane Society. 

Hugs,
Connie

Thanks Connie for the positive words. I really need them right now.. Like I just told Judy, I know
I am not alone in this, there are many looking for work just like I am. Hoping to get back on at
Walmart now that their freeze is off.
About that meltdown, I think alot of this depression of late on me is my new Doc up'd my Zoloft
to twice aday to 100 mg & I think it made the depression worse. so I have backed off to the 1 50mg I was taking before.  It seems to be better for Me than the higher dose.
Take care & thanks again.

I was wondering about you a few days ago. There's nothing I can say or do to make things better for you except we're always around... if when we're not active, we keep checking in - like family. Be well, Marilyn

Hey my birthday is in December too! I'm going to be 57 on the 16th!
whooo hoooo party time!

Marilyn...Ive been wondering where youve been...Im sorry your going through so much and I hope things look up for you soon...know I care about you and your in my thoughts...youll be ok and you will get through this all, a stronger person...we are here for you with no judgements...we are all friends and all care about you!! Try and focus on one good thing a day...it seems to help me and it might work for you...try to take care of yourself, we're here for you.