Hey guys, go to this site if you are at all motivated to find out what your ideal body weight "should" be -

http://www.healthcentral.com/diet-exercise/ideal-body-weight -3146-143.html

Here's what mine reported:

Ideal weight range is 136 - 149.6 lbs. (61.8 - 68 kg.). You are marginally overweight by 10.4 lbs. (5 kg.).

Makes me feel a little bit better!! Hope all is well in your worlds. Maureen

I did mine! I really like that sight it is very interesting and has some great info.

Ideal weight range is 148 - 162.8 lbs. (67.3 - 74 kg.). You are overweight by 18.2 lbs. (8 kg.).

while i'm not thrilled with being 18.2 pounds overweight its a heck of alot better than being 125 pounds overweight!
i felt great when i weighed 163 thats what i stayed at the longest. the 157 that i weighed was for less than a week i always wanted to be 145 but thats not gonna happen. i think thats too low.
my kids all tell me that since i've put on a few pounds they think i look better than when i was that skinny little thing.
now i blend in with all the other people of the world. hey i always wanted to blend!
And look at you your only 10 pounds overweight thats not even overweight! it says marginally! hey thats like maybe some water weight right? your doing great reenie!
My attitude is getting better about this whole thing with the weight.
one thing is that where i work now no one remembers me at the littlest weight. they all know me as me now. of course now and then i bump into some of the old peopl ei worked with but you know what? its in my head that they are looking and trying to figure out how much I've gained. and if that is running through their heads you kow what I say now? Screw em! I'm still smaller than they are! hahaha
take care keep in touch love ya!
Pammy
O Paulie the wonderbird has a new saying he picked up from me...when i came downstairs ths moring instead of saying good morning lik ehe normally does this time he yells "OH MY GOD!" which is what i usually say when the cat is having her belimic episodes. why does she bother to eat if she is going to get the hairball attack on my carpet? i think she's doing it on perpose I buy her good cat food probalby nbetter than what i'm eating to correct this problem. does it work? no i should get some road kill that would be cheaper and she is gonna throw it up anyways.
sorry when into my tangent again...

Ideal weight range is 142 - 156.2 lbs. (64.5 - 71 kg.).
You are marginally overweight by 5.8 lbs. (3 kg.).

It could always be worse....and it has...once upon a time.  BUT...it take a LOT of work to even stay where I am, let alone lose....oh well...

You're doing great, Joan. Yes, the effort to maintain where I'm at let alone lose is really unbelievable. I'm going back to baby goals every day. Today, for instance, my two goals are: no chocolate of any kind; and do my workout. So far so good. Have a good one. Maureen

i'm filled with dispair today.
i gained a pound.
people say its only a pound but its one of many and its the fear of another and another and another until i'm to 199 which is only just a pound from 200 then its all just meld together until i'm back to 300.
this is what is going through my head.
i stepped away from the laxative aisle. I've learned my lesson bout that.
but how do i compat this nightmare that doesn't end?
how do i make the scale go down?
i'm eating right i'm eating healthy
i'm not having aproblem not eating sweets or the no no stuff. i'm not eating that
i'm eatin protein, i'm eating fresh fruits and vegis and i'm eating correct amounts.
i started walking at night. i'm only doing 15 minutes but i'm working up to more.
OH yes thats what I'm suppose to consintrate on but when I step on the scale and its just one moure pound going upwards not downwards i get worried.
i get scared.
i get filled with dispair.
i'm not asking to lose another 100 only 10 and truthfully i'd be thrilled with 5 hell i'd jump up and down for 3 as long as they went down not up.,
so its probalby water weight.
it could be a potty break away.
it might be the scale is off wack.
i did weight myself in the afternoon not first thing in the morning. i usually stay away after the morning becuase it is so different in the afternoon.
maybe a sledhammer to the scale might correct what is bothering it?
i am off for my 15 minute walk.
Now I will say I am proud of getting bacvk out there and walking.
I'm glad that I've started that again and I'm able to do that 15 minutes walking at a good strong pace. arms swinging moving fast. I don't have any episodes so far. that makes me happy too.
if i continue doing what i am doing i keep being told that i will start to lose. but when? no one can give me a date.
ahhh thats life.
off to walk.

Pam, I applaud your honesty. Yes, it's frightening to see the scale numbers creep up and up especially when we are doing (almost) everything right. I really believe our metabolism system is really out of whack; not just the way our systems absorb nutrients, but more so about the way our bodies use up the energy/calories we ingest. It's just not happening! There is something going on now that is different from before. It's not normal. It's not normal to take in less than 1,800 calories a day, be at least moderately physically active, and GAIN weight. I don't believe this is water weight. I believe this is all relative to a breakdown of the system that is responsible for using up energy - that energy (calories) is not being used, it's being stored - as fat. Why? I don't know. I wish I did. I share your despair. And I THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart for posting this. I don't want to sugar coat this, I want to know why it's happening and fix it. I'm scared too, Pam. Dunno if that helps you to know that. But I'm with you on this. Be well, my friend. Maureen