Feeling Worthless/Breakdown last night!!

Hi All
 Had a major breakdown last night all the garbage hit bottom & through a major fit over
all of it!!
Feeling so worthless over being unemployed so long
No money to help with any bills
Wanting to move out of the living situation I am currently in & can't due to the no job thing.
Lowell has been great, but, just don't want to be here with him, anymore.
I am on more drugs for BP & diabetis & stress. That has a lot to do with this breakdown as the new drugs get into my system. I hate taking all these pills again & needed to vent here.
I did go to a support group meeting the other night & that was a good thing. We just
recently started a new one in the area. Haven't had on for a long time.
Take care & thanks for letting me vent here!! I will be back to myself in a day or 2.

I can sort of relate.... since I got sick 3 yrs ago.. and had to quit my job and go on disability we had to do a debt settlement.. it has been HELL..all kinds of nasty letters, phone calls till we had to get an unlisted number.... threats.. they  had me in tears everyday... today I got served papers, I have to go to court... I can't take much more of this.... to make matters worse... our dog is so sick and we are going to put him down tomorrow..... I'm sick and tired of no money.... I get so lonesome being alone everyday... There are no highlights in my life right now either... i hope you get better soon... where do we go for help??????

At least you get diability, I don't have that or unemployment. So rely on roommate to support me. That is why I can't move right now. I have Insurance thru the State of AZ, so at least I am back on anti-depresssants, but, I still get tired of it all & that is what happened last night. Hang in there!! I am sorry about your Dog, that always sucks.
They are family.

hang in there guys.
i feel so sad reading your posts. i wish there was somthing i could.
the whole world is in dire need right now. all we can do is pray and keep going on. keep our heads up. look for the future to be better

Hi Marilyn,

I'm so sorry that all  of this is catching up with you emotionally.  It's tough to keep your spirits up day in and day out when you feel like the light at the end of the tunnel is a train.  You know you can always vent here and I want you to also know that I appreciate you being here to suport the rest of us. 

Hugs,
Connie

Thanks Pammy & Connie I try to stay positive, but,. somedays it just comes crashing
In!!

I dont' know if this helps at all but I wanted to tell you that you were so very missed her eon the board when you didn't have access to a computer.

all of us wondered where you were and prayed you were ok. People who usually lurked would leave a message "has anyone heard from Marilyn?" Is Marilyn ok?

I thought you should know how much you are thought of.

Thanks Pammy & Connie That does help!! I am feeling somewhat better today. Still a
lot going on that has me troubled,but, just like the everready bunny I will keep on tickin!!
You guys know about the Billy thing, will he has been trying to get back into my life &
that is not going to happen in this lifetime. He knows I am back here & back with Lowell & is really trying my patients. That was part of all of this breakdown. I might have to get the police involved if  he shows up over here at the aprtment & I will if he
is stupid enough to try that. He thinks I am going to just forget everything that happened
& give in. NOTTTTTTT !! Cold day in HE** before that happens.

Pammy speaks the truth.  You were very, very missed when you were gone.