Daily Log Day 4

Hi - had a rough time of it yesterday and caved; I'm going to follow Kim's lead and post what I ate so that I hold myself accountable; this is not easy for me to do because I have strong feelings of shame and remorse, but here goes: started with a handful of jelly beans (kitchen at work); that started off the binge, no other word for it; had at least 3 more handfuls of jelly beans, then had 3 handfuls of M&Ms (from the woman's office). Went home and had an english muffin with PB and then some homemade lentil and spinach soup. These are the things I ate that were NOT on my planned menu (which I also ate - what I planned for). So, lots of calories and bad feelings. In retrospect, I was very stressed at work with a huge project that there was a great deal of pressure on me for a successful outcome. It was successful, but took the whole day to get there. So my eating was absolutely a trigger response to what I was feeling. If I can just figure out how to do a different way of responding to negative feelings and anxiety, I'll have this beat! For today (and by the way, I've already talked myself down off the ledge in CRAVING the M&M's - could of had them when I got to work, but didn't - yeah me!):

B:  1 apple w/ 1T peanut butter (delicious!)     150C, 4P
S:  celery w/ 1T peanut butter   95C, 3P
L:  Lean Cuisine frozen meal   280C, 21P
S:  Zone bar   210C, 14P
D:  Protein shake w/ yogurt and fresh blueberries   300C, 30P

158.5/154/140

Love you guys! Thanks for your help and support, I'd be lost without you. M.

Not too bad Reenie...today is a new day...you'll be fine, everyone has slipups..look at me lol...just get back ontrack today and youll be good.
I did ok yesterday...NO CHERRY COKE ...I think the day before was just a bad fluke....anyway yesterdays menu:

Opps... had to edit to add my morning cup of coffee w/splenda

Breakfast- two eggs with cheese,little fresh ham, and onions in it, 1 piece of toast with butter...small juice glass of pinapple orange juice

Lunch- cheese stick and a clementine, water

Snack- SF choc. pudding and protein shake

Dinner- 2 small chicken and cheese and salsa fajitas and green beans, about 2 bites if that much, of some kind of chicken flavored noodles ( my daughters concoction), and water

Bedtime snack almost a whole large granny smith apple and water

all my vitamins and alittle more water and I did some situps and housework arggg...going up and down those steps a million times carrying laundrey, that was my workout! All and all I think I had a pretty good day.

Today so far Ive had a cup of coffee w/splenda..and husband is home so I broke down and had 2 slices of cheese pizza with him...he is no help LOL...but rest of the day Ill be on track!

Another day down where I resisted random chocolate ... YEAH !!!!

on the way to wor****d coffee protein shake

breakfast/snack  - Kashi vanilla oatmeal

lunch - salad (with diced smoked turkey lunch meat, shredded cheese, bacon bits, olives, artichoke hearts  - all measured)

mid-afternoon snack - 4 oz light vanilla yogurt w/ sliced strawberries

afterwork snac****d coffee protein shake

dinner - one meatball, about 1/2 cup leftover potroast & gravy

after dinner snack - 2 choc chip cookies

my vitamins ( I am good with those .. very seldom forget .. and if I can't remember taking them, I take them again just in case .. lol), and LOTS of water with various crystal light packets.


Oh, and up at 4:45 a.m. and did the Walking DVD before I woke up completely !!!