Life ain't fair sometimes!!

I've been reading all the post for the last few days and I can feel everybody's pain!!  I've eaten all kinds of stuff I shouldn't.  But when a kid brings you candy, you have to eat it!!  Tomorrow is my last day at work and I'll be out for 16 days. I am going to try my best to do better. I feel so bad, just like I did before the surgery. I am changing to a new PCP and I'd like to know what all kind of blood test I should ask for?  I know about a year and a  half ago I had to have IV iron, and I suppect I'm low again, because I feel so bad and I freeze all the time.
I'm still having major problems with my feet. I had shots in them again last Friday , that's the third time and he can't give me any more.  The way he talked I would just have to hurt. And man , do I ever hurt!!  Yesterday when I got home from work , Charles said , how do you feel. I said , well my left arm doesn't hurt!!  I am really depressed from the weight gain and the perils of old age! Gettin old ain't for sissys!!  I'll be 61 Feb. 9th. and I would like to work till I'm 62, so I can get my social security and my retirement.  I just pray there is still a retirement and social security in the t years to come. Everything is so bleak in the whole world, I've just about quit listening to the news, because everything is so bad.  I just pray President Obama can pull us of out of this depression!!  I don"t call it a recession, because it's way past there.

I'm ashamed to go back to my surgeon!!  I've gained about 40 pounds since I was at his office, about 2 years ago. So, I am hoping the new doctor will run the blood test and help me get back on track. I know my diabets is out of control again, so I guess that's a big part of my pain.

Well, I have rambled in this post, but that's what old people do!!  I love y'all!  Judy

Hi Judy, do you know what? I went to your profile page and read it - for the first time! Imagine that after all these years? You are one tough cookie - one hell of a survivor. As for feeling ashamed to go back to your surgeon, don't be - he'll be happy to take your money, ashamed or not...listen, this is all up to us. He's a tool; any weight loss program is a tool; and reading your profile page, you've tried all sorts of "tools" and you've never given up, so I don't expect you will now. I think the thing for us to do RIGHT NOW is for us to band together and find a way to SUPPORT EACH OTHER to help each other GET BACK ON TRACK. Speaking of which, it looks like you tried Barbara Thompson's program, "Back o Track" - how did that work for you? Can you share what that program is about - what do you eat on that program? What are the specifics? Maybe we can try that together with you leading us? All I know is I feel the same way you do: desperate, alone, scared, out of control: let's see, today I've had 2 pieces of birthday cake (for a person who works here) and of course my many handfuls of M&M's... no exercise, I just sit through my lunch hours now instead of going to the gym. I'm certifiably depressed. Sad. Defeated. And gaining. So don't feel ashamed, do what you have to do to take care of yourself - and I'll try to follow your lead and never give up... be well, Judy. Maureen

Hi Judy,

I'm so sorry you are feeling down and your feet hurt. Thats the worst. Your feet take you places and when they feel bad all feels bad. Its wrong of him to make you feel that way. And don't feel bad about gaining. I JUST went through the same thing with my doctor!!! She was like you gained 30 lbs since I last saw you. I said yeah. She was like what are you doing to fix it? I told her cutting carbs and sugar and she was happy with that and said that was perfect. I told her I lost 4 pounds and she was excited about that. Don't let those docs get you down. it happens to all of us. them included. Hang in there! We are here for you! God BLess!!!

((hugs!))

hi judy,
i'm in a similar state of mind as you are. down due to weight gain and not feeling well. i had a birthday this week turned 56. not old i dont think so its a number at least thats wha ti always felt but now with not feeling well and the way the world is with money jobs its all so scarey.
i'm a whimp thats for sure.
i thinhk once i start getting to the point where i feel lik emyself more than just a week at a time then maybe i can get the energy to go dancing again. i miss dancing.
my feet hurt too! what is up with that??? geesh the late 50's aren't as much fun as the early 50's were!
take care your in my prayers.

hugs judy