Many Thoughts...

Do you realize we're less than 3 months away from our 5 year anniversary? Wow. Amazing. I've been hopping around to different boards, just trying to get some help with dealing with my food issues, and trying to understand why I've lost the "steam" of my program - not exercising anymore, every day is a day of hanging on by my fingernails with food compulsions, just really feeling like I've lost the battle but still in the war, do you know what I mean? There's no peace in the mind living like this. I'm finding on other boards that many, many people are feeling precisely this way as well.  This doesn't really help me in any way except to know that I'm not alone. I just wish I understood what has gone wrong. I suppose it relates mostly to feeling so hungry all of the time, just so damned hungry that I want to eat all of the time, I just want to be eating something! And life, man, is life hard - right? What was it that Darwin said??? "It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."  I haven't dealt real well with all the changes, especially the growing older part, the daughter leaving me part, the son not needing me anymore part, the marriage feeling more like a sibling relationship than a lovers relationship part... life. And now there's the added daily pressure of waiting for the bomb to drop that one or both of us has lost our jobs - happening all around us at both our places of employment. But I bet I'm saying stuff here that just about all of you can relate to, right? Just thinking. Thinking, thinking, thinking. And right now I'm thinking about chocolate. God, how I want chocolate. Good day, all. This board is so quiet - change... guess I better go with the flow... M.

Reenie I have no words...but just want you to know Im thinking of you.....you'll be ok  <--- a hug for you

share an oar , reenie, i'm in the same boat with you!!!!!