I do believe the man just broke up with me.

it has been an interesting evening.
anyone who haas read my past few postings kniows that ive not been feeling well for a few weeks.
the man i've been seeing for almost a year has had a hard time dealing with it. i have no energy right now. i have to use it for work which pays my bills. so when we go out i' mnot the ball of energy that i was before.
since dancing boosts my adreniline and causes one of my low blood sugar episodes i'm avoiding it until this is under better control so thats boring for him. Like its alot of fun for me!
last weekend was thanksgiving and i was out of state so he was feeling alittle let out because he chose not to go to his daughters house for thankgiving he chose to stay home adn feel sorry for himself because he wasn't anywhere specail for the holiday. we've not been going out long enough to take someone to my mothers house that is 3 states away.
did i mention that we are not teenagers but in our 50's???
so the man has been feeling sorry forhimself that his girlfreind isn' t feeling well and not givin ghimj the attention he feels he deserves.
ut oh i'm starting to get pissed.
by friday nights i'm very tired because of working all week. this is my busy season at work. but we hadn't gotten together for a couple of weeks because of the holiday and i was feeling badly about that. so he came up and we went to the movies. when we came back to my place we sat and talked for alittle bit and i fell asleep. it was after 10pm that was alot later than i've been staying away over the past few weeks! but he was feeling that i was ignoring him.
ut oh i'm getting really pissed now.
what about me?
i'm not well right now!
i do believe that i am lucky. if the man has brokenj up with me ok. if not i think i shall be finsihing it.
so now that i am pissed my adreniline has flown the coop and i'm feelig nasty. geesh!
i am so lucky to have found out this side of him before we got into this even more.

OK, I'm a litte confused... Why are you not sure whether or not he broke up with you?  Was he not clear?  Maybe it doesn't matter.  If this guy isn't concerned about your health and not doing all he can to take care of you, he doesn't deserve you. You need to focus on taking care of you and if he can't deal with it, too bad. 

Oh... I'm also convinced that guys break up with women right before the holidays so they don't have to buy a gift.  I knew a woman who's BF broke up with her before every birthday and gift giving holiday, but found his way back right after.  It took her a while to catch on.

Hugs,
Connie

Hi Connie,

I have missed this board so very much. did i tell yhou how my wonderful family bought a new computer for me for my birthdy and christmas? And this past week I finally had the cable guy come and fix my interent connect? life is great!
Don' tbe confused I'm pretty sure he broke up with me.
This problem I'm having with my low blood sugar is driving me nuts! the guy and I were always very busy doing things on the weekends. Friday night we would go out to dinner maybe a movie stop and dance for most of the night then go to a 24 hour grocery store to pick up breakfast. I've always been somneone with alot of engery and it was nice having someone else with as much energy. But with the problem i'm haivng with the low blood sugar I just do not have the energy that I've had before.
I'm tired most of the time and have to push myself to get up in the morning and go to work. then conjtinue to do a good job. hey thats what pays my bills. its what i need to survive especailly in this economy. then when i come home i have to I need to I want to take care of my little animals. they are my little furry, feathered babies and I love them.
The guy was starting to make some noise about how he's not into birds. he accepts my dog and tolartes the cats but he didn't care for the birds. my reply was well i love them i guess its a good thing you do not have birds. i figured if he ment things he said about me that he would either accept them or move on. so its probly alittle more than me not having energy!
anyways, i did not see him last week because i was in NH with my family. and when we got home I needed to take care of the animals plus I was exhaused phyiscally exhaused after the drive. so i stayed home saturday dn sunday to do the things I needed to. clean cages, laundry, grocerys and sleep.
so last night he came to my place and we went to the movies. we had a nice time and laughed alot talked just had a nice time togehter catching up too,. after the movies we took a drive around town to look at lights. we got back to my place around 1030 and i of course was pooped. we sat on the couch to talk and the next thing i knew i was sound alseep. he would talk to me to try to wake me up and i'd talk a minjutebut really had no control over it i would fall asleep again.
he got tic'd off about that and said that i wasn't putting any energy into being with him. that he felt that i should push myself.
he is a big baby and i do not have the time or energy to deal with crap like that.
connie i thought about this lasdt night and came up with the same idea as you. my birthday is next week followed by the big holiday gift time season! he had made a comment last week when we were tlaking on the phone that money was tight he's not making his goals (commission person just like me) so he's not making good money plus he bought a new car which i think if your not makinjg your goals or money and your dipping into savings to pay bills than you should maybe with the way the econmy is not to and stiumlate it with a brand new big SUV.if you need a car then maybe look at something alittle bit more economical. but my other thought is hey its his money not mine!
so anyways he got his point across. he's not happy staying at home when the lady is ill. Ok that pretty much tells me what our life would be like if we were to marry now doesn't it?
sooooooooooooo people Pammy loves herself and wants herself healthy. That is Pammys number 1 goal right now. I am not going to be with anyone who isn't as concerned about my health as he should be.
this is the guy when he was ill for the first 4 monjths of our relationship that I took him to doctors, i was there in the hospital, every weekend cooking, picking up perscriptions. theres a list that i will not bring up to him.
i dealt with an ex who the world had to revolve around. i'm not going to get involved with anothe mini king.
Connie? you still reading? Do you think I'mm I on the right track?
I'm feeling pretty strong right now but I'm sure over the next few days there will be some poor me stories being typed on this brand new nice computer!
thanbk you for reading

pammie..i'm not connie but i'm reading and i am saying you go girl!!!!!!! you must take care of you ...and your feathered and furred babies --they rely on you --you are the most important part of your equation.....

oh pam---i am married to one of those- i didn't see it when we first started together and didn't admit it when i first saw it--now--i am trying to be very careful what i wish for ....nuff said i think i hope cuz i have to be careful also what i put into print...

anyhow --take care of pammie and the heck with the man...this one wasn't "the " one even if it seemed like it for awhile....

special hugs and prayers to you sister marcher..........

((( Pammie )))

I'm sorry this guy seems to have turned into a toad.   He sounds pretty self-centered to me, especially if you have spent time doing for him when he was not well, that he can't do the same for you!

I hope they get to the bottom of your energy issues and you bounce back soon!

Hugs, Mo

Its a very pretty snowy day in Connecticut. Fortuantely its not alot of snow! I love how nice it looks but am not a big fan of snowy weekdays when I have to drive!
The guy called last night asking if I was coming to visit. I said no. I said if you weren't real happy with me friday night then your not going to be happy with me tonight. I'm staying home.
He was very sweet and sugary. Of course he was. I expected that.
He also made me doubt myself and how I had thought he ment the things he said,. like maybe I was over reacting to it. In fact he said that he's the type that doens't let things fester. That if something nbeeds to be siad he'll say it and forget about it that I cant let things fester or they will ruin our relationship. OK.....hummm I'm seeing a pattern here.
I recall the conversation being much different than how he is portraying it. I need to continue to believe in myself.
I am having a very nice sunday! relaxing slept late had a nice breakfast. Going to do some baking all on my time.
I agree that relationships require time and discussions. If a conversation even an arguement that is upsetting happens it needs to be worked through. but sometimes people have arguements or conversations that are one sided. Sometimes they say something then say you misunhderstood when you really didn't but that it is easier to say you misunderstood when you khow you've said something thats not right than to admit that what you said wasn't right. I was married to someone like that for 25 years who convinced me that I was stupid and could never amount to anything without him.
I think I"m doing pretty good without him and I know I will continue to do very well on my own.
Thank youi so much for your input and support!
good luck to us all and god bless,
Pam

Ack! What a princess. (the man not you!)   what a bum. I mean he should be pampering YOU since you haven't been feeling well. 'sigh' MEN! but of course when he was sick you pampered him but they dont tend to see that for some reason. Ah Pammie, I know it well. Men love attention. More so than any woman I've ever met. You hang in there...stand up for yourself! Don't settle for anything less than you deserve. It's only been a year (even though feelings are still involved). Better to move on if you feel like you should and be happy finding someone who truly cares for you. Your doing the right thing! Taking care of yourself!   ((hugs!))