Tomorrow is a new day!

I'm back!! The last three weeks have been a night mare!! School started and for these 17 days I've worked more in the kitchen than I have in 5 years. We have a girl making our  menus that has never worked a day in her life in a kitchen and she's killing us!! All the managers are having to work in the kitchen and still do our office work. I was so tired on Friday, I left and I am going to work tomorrow and do my inventory and my end of the month reports. But I'm going to sleep late before I go up there!! I've eaten myself to death because of stess. I have not weighed this week because I don't want to know how much more I've gained! I know before last Sat. I had gained 6 more pounds. My feet and legs and back are killing me. I've been to all kinds of shoe stores and tried on a hundred pair of shoes and I've bought 6 pairs and nothing helps. So, I'm going to the doctor next week and see about the insoles that are special made. I gave $300.00 for a pair several years ago , but my feet have totally changed. I don't have an arch in my feet at all now. My sister said you know what's wrong with your feet and back, I said  I don't want to here it!! My step son said you know what's wrong and I said I don't want to here it!  But I do KNOW what's wrong with me!  I feel so bad, I feel just like I did before I had WLS. I remember saying I didn't know I felt BAD  till I felt SO GOOD after surgery. I know my diabetes is worse, but I don't even check  my sugar because I know I'm not doing what I should. The doctor told me 4 months ago I have the begingings of kidney desease. He said to keep my blood pressure and sugar under controll.So this is another cry for help. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a hundred years old. On Monday , Sept. 1st.  Labor day, of 2008 I'm going to start over!
I have been eating sugar and carbs and tomorrow I will NOT eat any sugar and keep my carbs under 50. Girls , I need your help. Pray for me!! I don't want to wind up on a kidney dialysis machine or have my feet taken off . Diabetes is an ugly thing and living with it is sometimes worse than death. I'm depressed, can you tell??? Love y'all, Judy

sending hugs and prayers-judy-you have identified it- you need to own it!
you can do it! make time for you and do it!

Thanks Margo, I know that I can. I just have to get started. Judy 

WOW what a message!

My heart and prayer are being sent your way.

September 1st will be the start for you to get things back under control. I think we are all allowed a stress set back. Its good you recognize it and put a date to get it under control. Congratulations for seeing that and I know your implementing the control right now!

Have you tryed the 5 day diet that alot of us have? If you check past posts you'll see what I'm talking about. I am terrible at doing cut and paste for the link PLEASE if anyone reads this that can please do that for Judy?

I tried it and it helped me alot. I lost 8 pounds in that week with another one sense. It really helped me to realize that my pounch still works. Its been a few weeks since I did it and it is still working. Of course I continued after that week of maintaining the diet style and have kept off that weight I lost. I've not lost anymore but Ineed to boost my excersize program! which is in the bucket right now. Soooooo My start up date for excersize with be today!

good luck and god bless

Thanks Pam, I know I can do this with the help of my friends. You all know what I'm going through. Today is really the day I'm starting over. Judy

Judy, you're a lot like me in that when you're quiet on the board you tend to be in trouble with the food. I'm glad you let us know what's going on. No matter what, we're all in this together and we're always here to help each other through. No matter what! Honey, it's all got to start with the head - you must feel a sense of peace and of quiet mind - I guess for me, this means "sanity" in my every day living with food before I can be doing well with it. So, Judy, my friend - try to find peace of mind, try to make that your focus - you sound urgent. Try to quiet your urgency...and I am betting if you can do this, you can deal more effectively with your food demons. When you start to feel frantic and urgent and overwhelmed, find a way to quiet those feelings somehow. Then you will be better able to stick to you healthy plan of eating. Which you MUST do if you are diabetic! You can't MESS AROUND WITH DIABETES! I'm not going to walk on eggshells about this! Diabetes kills. And before that happens, you can lose a limb or go blind or any number of horrific things can happen before your organs shut down and you die - so, you must start testing, you must quiet your urgency, and you must start taking care of yourself with healthy food choices - this is NOT a matter of losing weight. This is a matter of HEALTH and controlling a life threatening disease. Don't stay away, we're here for you. Love you, Maureen

Thanks Maureen, You put it right out there for all the world to see, diabetes really can kill, but you can live a terrible life till you do die. My grandmother went blind. I have one friend that has been on dialysis for about 4 years and I've watched her go down hill and have surgery after surgery trying to get a port that will keep working. She had an 8 hour surgery one month ago and she said that is the last thing she is doing. She is on the kidney transplant list, but I don't know if she will live to get it don't. She's 61. I have another friend 60 going through the same thing and she is not going to have a transplant or do anything else. She and I graduated from high school together.  Her aunt told me yesterday at church that Stella said she's just tired and ready to get out of it. So this is what my furture holds if I don't do this diet.  Today is the first day of a new way of living.Thanks for caring.  Love ya, Judy

you know i was thinking...that i didn't want to talk about food... i was depressed and tired of obsessing and talking about it which makes me not come on here. Which i know always just makes it worse. So being silent always equals food issues for me too. all of us probably.

Judy hang in there honey, my prayers are with you. Watch that blood sugar. My mom and uncle has diabetes. Its so scary! Try cutting the carbs and sugar. Start easy and work it out of your diet. but slowly. Since you have diabetes you don't want to shock your system. carbs and sugar are the worst anyway for all of us. my bane for sure and if i dont' watch i will end up like my mom and uncle. Lets both pledge to cut them out. I was bad this weekend. like you I was stressed. my little girl was sick every day this weekend with extremely high temperatures and i ate whatever i could grab in between breaths.

As far as feet... i dont have diabetes but when i put on 30 pounds my feet hurt every single day that i got out of bed!!! I lost 10 pounds and i can already tell a difference but my feet still hurt because of my weight. That gives me some incentive. I can't beleive i let myself gain 30 pounds! and it happened SOOOO FAST! in like 2 weeks i gained 30!!!! it was insane. Hate it. But its comming off and i have to focus on that and not give up even though i oppsed this weekend. Its a never ending fight i swear. hang in there!  ((hugs))

Elizabeth M