stupid IT department

well they did it they finally blocked everything that has the words message board or forum from our school computers! So I can only check in here from home which means RARELY! @@ Life is busy and that is ok, the kiddos are doing a monday and Tuesday night activity for the spring. I am sitting right at 203 pounds for the past month or so...I am 5'6" ish a bit over but not 5'7" so this is TOO much weight for my body, I am in size 14 clothing and hate that, and now with this weight gain it has been all in my butt and legs@@ so now I am pear shaped and I have no idea how to dress that kind of body, this causes me stress! My mom had her scan yesterday and we will know how these treatments are going on wednesday. praying for some good news or at least no change. I am trying my best to drink tons of liquids and eat the protein first but honestly I do not ever feel real body hunger, it is head hunger or emotional eating i know that! Reenie I read your guidelines from the CD's you are listening too and love them. MARGO, I would love to hear those cd's let me know what you need ok? my regular email is [email protected] I have been encouraged so much by reading all the anniversary posts, even if they are not all "sunshine and roses with butterflies" they are REAL, and REAL life resonates in my soul much more than all the other stuff. Plus it helps me not feel completely crazy! I do so value all of your posts and encouragement to each other, it makes me have some more faith in mere mortals hugs to you all nic

Keep you chin up. I am sure if you continue working on it, the lbs will come off. Martha

Nic, hang on - you are dealing with so much. The very, very best, most important thing you can do for yourself is to someone find something else to sooth your feelings with other than food. Believe me, I'm right there with you. But I celebrated a very small victory on Friday and di not touch a single M&M. Baby steps, Nic. Feel your feelings, continue to come here for help - no matter what, we all listen very carefully and we all care about you very deeply. One day at a time. One hurt at a time. One hurl at a time. It's all good, my friend. You will get through this. MARGO - I WILL "PLAY IT FORWARD" AND SHIP MY SET OF CD'S ONTO SOMEONE AS SOON AS I'M FINISHED WITH THEM. Don't feel this is all on you! Let's start a chain with these CD's - whomever gets a set listens, does the work, then passes them on to someone else, ok? Reenie