an apology to all

yes; i was angry the other day and took it out on joanie's thread..i shouldn't have...however; i want to thank you all--joanie, reenie, nic,, for not bashing me - for allowing me to vent, for helping with constructive criticism.... that is one of the wonderful things about this marchers 04 group---you do not sugarcoat words and you do not hold back--you are there and you listen .....and i thank you and i apologize!!!!! i really think that was one of those days i should not have been allowed online!!!!! having said that;other than my faith in my God, these forums are really my only outlet somedays and i guess i felt that i needed to reach out! thank you for grabbing hold with the life preserver!!!! i consider myself to be a strong woman --however; i have reached my limit several time slately........

not only was i angry- i was angry at everybody and everything!! the world/the sky becuz it was blue/michael/nic for being a 6 !/joanie for being happy/ myself mostly for not being in control... no one deserved that anger but myself....

I haven't seen it yet Margo, but having myself let my anger out on those who didn't deserve it recently, I think I rather understand what you were going through. I hate having to apologize. But I'd rather do that than leave things undone.

having read so many of your posts over the years; i know that you understand! and i mean that in a good way!!! thx for chiming in!!!!

Okay - I just read your posts and all I can see is frustration. I go through all that too. But I do have to say, height has a lot to do with what size you are. I'm 5'7" and weigh 195. I'm wearing a size 14 now. I was down to 12 pretty solidly at 185, and 175 some 12's were actually too loose. I just had personal issues with buying a 10 because I didn't want to be disappointed if/when I outgrew them again. Still, I look at my legs right now and all I see is flab. I don't look like a 14 to me. I look more like a 16 or 18 to me. But that's what the label on my pants say. Okay - I could go on but my thoughts are scattered enough as they are and eventually I will get around to my own update. Eventually.

it also confirms what we were taught early out--not to compare ourselves to anyone in the loss of pounds dept--so i should also not compare sizes!!!!!!!! i know better--but we still do it!!!! i graduated high school in a size 3 at 99# --before having three big babies and all of the abuse i put my body thru...yes i am frustrated and yes i was angry --and oh go**** is only me that can do anything about any of it--but thank you for listening!!!!!!!!

Oh, Margo - my gosh, you don't need to apologize to anyone for anything! God, the posts I've made to this board over the years, the pity-parties I've thrown for myself and insisted you all come - and then I'd lock the doors so no one could leave!!! My dear friend, this is what we're here for! I WANT you to feel your anger! You have so much to be upset about right now, you must be feeling all sorts of things, the least of which is anger - how about frustration and fear and resentment and helplessness and hopelessness...what you're going through is very, very tough stuff! Please don't feel you have anything at all to be sorry about or to regret. Not here, sweetie - not on this board. And if I made you feel badly about anything I said, I did not mean to! I want to lift you up, I want you to know that I'm here, I'll listen, I'll hold you up the best way I know how until you've got your second wind...we are in this together, for as long as we keep coming here. Love you, Margo. Reenie P.S. When I was in the 140s, I was wearing size 6s (bottoms) and small or medium tops - very comfortable. I am 155 today and I can squeeze into those 6s but they are very, very tight. I am 5'4" tall. It really is relative to height. And Dina, I know just what you mean - I look at my thighs and I HATE them--never did get the skin taken off there and god, my thighs are awful - my son won't be seen with me in a bathing suit. I keep telling him BATTLE SCARS, you little pip-squeak! Battle scars!

I agree about the sizes and the thighs. I hate mine too...but no $$$ to do anything about them. That's life. As long as I wear long pants no one sees them and cannot tell it is flab around those bones.

I agree here, You do not have to apoligize for anything. This is where we all come to vent our frustrations & yes, anger. We all understand more than anyone out there in the real world. You do not have anyone else to vent too, so come here anytime you want. We love you as everyone here & will help you through those dark days as always. Love you Ladybug Marilyn

marilyn...thank you for chiming in..i know that your roe hasn't been an easy one to hoe these 4 years either. hugs!