Disgusted

And I ain't talkin' politics, although plenty disgusted about that as well. I have a very big event at work today and pulled out every single one of my business suits this a.m. - none of them fit! These are outfits I could wear very comfortably last year and this morning, I might as well have been a vienna sausage in any of them. I ended up throwing on a roomy dress with a not-so-complimentary blazer - not exactly stellar corporate America attire - I've got to stop this! Can't stand the way I look and feel! Just had to share...Reenie

wow!!! Rennie! I wish I could say that. Well, here I am...as you requested but I could not remember my sign in information so I had to re-sign up under another name. I guess my profile is lost forever.:'(

Hey Reenie: I have a question for you...I have just gone back and read some of your prior post. When we had our initial wls were you told that you would go way down in weight and then go up and level off? I was told that ...so when I started gaining some weight back I was not too worried because I felt I had lost too much weight. Now I have plateaued at 190 and I feel like I look normal. I am also at the weight which the surgeon told me would be my normal weight. Have you thought this might be what you have gone thru? or do you have a medical condition? I do not want to put doubts in your mind if you do have a medical conditional and need this procedure. I am definitely not in the medical field to know what is best for you...but wanted to ask you about this.

Martha, I have come to the very painful realization--and I believe this to be true with all my heart--that once a person has subjected his or her body to extreme obesity, no matter the weight lost, that body is in a forever after state of regain. Our fat cells were blown up to 100 times their normal size when they were filled with all that fat. After losing the weight, the cells sit in vigilent wait mode, ready and wanting to be filled up again. Otherwise, they sit in our bodies, deflated and with nothing to do - but wait to be inflated with fat again. So we are in perpetual motion of heading toward regain. As painful as this is to accept, I must do so in order to fight the fight every single day. And I'm losing the fight. This is the single most significant reason why such a rediculous low percentage of people of have lost weight - no matter the means by which they lost it - end up regaining it. Our fat cells. How to fight it??? The only way I know is to keep moving, hard, often. Every day. Vigorous exercise shakes up the system, confuses the fat cells (hey, I do have a job to do and it has nothing to do with fat!), and more than anything, keeps us healthy. The problem for me is I am a certifed, bonafide emotional eater - I try to sooth my raging emotions with food the way a firefighter tries to put out a raging fire - with tons and tons of water. Well, the fire might get put out but if you turn your back on it for a second it springs right back up into raging flames. It's a never ending cycle. Sorry to be so long-winded and would love to hear the take others have on this. Be well, so glad you're back! Reenie

Reenie, Reenie.... I know that is a HORRIBLE feeling. Take comfort in the fact that there is a PHYSICAL REASON this is occurring and that it will be corrected shortly. This is NOT your fault. I repeat, this is NOT YOUR FAULT. You'll have that corrective procedure and slide right back into those clothes. One day at a time, girlie! Love ya! Joanie

It can't happen soon enough for me...glad to be the guinea pig on this one. Reenie