Carb Hangover

I made it two weeks before I had a melt down and binged last night. Got a cold, stressed at work, working 14 hour days for the last two weeks... just had a melt down. So I ate 2 100 calorie packs of crap and a 100 calorie ice cream sandwich. Not a lot of food compared to my old binge days and it only took me 100 calories over my daily limit, but let me tell you, I felt like I had poisoned myself. Between the cold and the dumping and the general crappy feeling, I was not a happy camper. OK, now I know why I had surgery... To keep me from doing stupid stuff like that. Pouch is still doing its thing and working. I'd been doing really well on food and exercise so I'm not happy with myself, but I'm back on track today. Connie

I just feel so lousy - more emotionally than physically - when I get into the food, Connie. The important thing is to just keep going, and it sounds like you're doing that. Take care of your cold. Get some rest and let the job go for one stinking day. No one is indespensible at work, no matter what we do, no matter how many people we manage, no matter how many departments we oversee or deadlines we need to meet, each and every one of us is replaceable...your work place will manage if you take one stinking day off to take care of YOU. Next time you want to reach for the crap, my dear friend, reach for the phone instead and call me...or get online and post to us. Now, walk away from the eating you did yesterday - it's done, it's in the past - and embrace today. Take care of you...Love, Reenie

Connie! I know it totally sucks when I make the bad choice... I am so hard on myself that I am always telling myself I will bethe ONE that this whole surgery thing doesn't work for...it doesn't matter I lost 130 pounds...look I gained back 30 pounds...see you aren't strong enough even WITH a $60,000 surgery...what a looser...ya know that cycle??? I have started telling my self things like this...oh ok...this makes me feel like death ...HEY that still works...GREAT! I CAN make it work for me I CAN an I have to because I am important... I won't let the kids eat crap all day so I can't eat crap all day! LIfe is good...most days rest up, let work be handled by someone else for a bit, and take a breather... Nic