trying not so hard but trying
the title says it all. i have seen the scale budge it did go down for a pound. but now i'm afraid to get on it.
during an episode were i was starving and needed something because of the light headedness i bought the only thing that had less than 4gm of sugar no fat and 130 calories in a serving. you'd thing that was a good thing right? WRONG! they were chocolate animal crackers.
ok so that still doesn't sound bad now does it?
its terrible!
they are my downfall. cookies. i am the original cookie monster. cookiesa re banded from myhome but what do i buy? I think i justified it because i needed something to boost me up so that i wouldnt' pass out. but cookies? iw oudl have been better off with the high sugar stuff casue those i won't over do. in fact high sugar stuff still turns my stomach. but low sugar in lots of handfulls make my weight go up!
dam cookies.
i brought themhome because i didnt' want to be wasteful. yea right. i didnt' want to give up that chocolatey animalc cookie cracker taste. finally i saw reason when i was standing in front of my microwave were i store things like crackers and i was eating handsfull of the crap. the bag was 1/2 gone. it did take me 3 days to make the bag 1/2 gone but it still was 1/2 gone. wasted calories that i should not have eaten.
i threw them away in the trash an took that bag out to the dumpster ASAP.
so i looked at what might have created me going on the cookie binge.
i am dating a not so new guy.
ok thats not a bad thing right?
i've known him for almost 10 years. we've not dated until this past month. he's a nice guy i kinda like him more than i want to admit. theres the cookie binge coming through loud and clear. i do not want to admit that i like him cause then if it doesn't work out like alllll the other losers (no he's not a loser...yet...) i've dated then i'll feel bad and i don't want to feel bad so what do i do but eat the friggin cookies which are gonna make me feel worse than any possible failed dating scene! Dr Phil would have a field day with me.
i like this guy and i don't want to.
i can feel the cookie thermometer climbing.
i am waiting for joy, connie, reenie, ladybugbear, anybodys everybodys take on this and how to compat the cookies monsters.
geesh i hate dating.
Pammy,
You really need to give yourself some credit. OK, so you had a little binge... the important thing is that you regrouped and threw the bag away. Four years ago you probably would have eaten the whole bag in one day so half a bag in three days is huge progress. Forgive yourself and move on.
As for the boy issues, I can certainly relate. I HATED dating. Going on a date is like going to a job interview isn't it? At some point, I decided to reverse my thinking about dating, I decided that I was going to take the position that these men were applying for a job as my boyfriend and I was the one calling the shots. I went through a a ton of applicants before I gave The Man the job. The irony is that I never would have thought this was the guy for me. He was short, round and eeeek a conservative Republican. Two years later and he's still here and thinking about crossing party lines in the next election. So just go with the flow with your new guy. Worst case scenario, you get a couple of free meals, find out he's a loser and eat a bag of cookies and get over it. Best case scenario, you find your best friend for life.
Hugs,
Connie
ahhh Pammy,
lets look at the positives here...before...would have even THOUGHT about the bag of cookies or even remembered eating them???
so 3 days to eat /12 the bag...not the best use of calories but YOU KNOW that and you dealt with it...I hate throwing away chips or salty things (my FAVORITES)!!!
dating that SUCKED years ago and I don't ever want to do it again...EVER!
I love what Connie said about the "date" applying for the job of YOUR boyfriend...because YOU are worth the time and effort, YOU ARE!!!
ok...bad bag of cookies OVER...what did you do that made you smile today??
Nic
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