Losing again...an update

It's been a while since I posted, so I thought I would do it today. It sounds like everyone is doing well and getting on with their lives....a good thing all in all. I have to tell you, I started Weigh****chers around a month ago, and it's really been great. I've lost 5 pounds, but mostly, I feel in control. When I lose another 10 pounds, I will be at goal weight. I know it will take me a while because I don't have much to lose, but I am in no hurry at all. Like WLS, it is a tool I am using to control my weight and my health. For me personally, it is a winning situation. In our busy lives, I feel the meetings help me because it makes me in tune to my body and what I am putting into it. I've also been working out faithfully at the gym 3 mornings a week, which has been a tremendous help to me. I no longer feel like I love/hate working out. It is something I have to do. Period. It's like driving and breathing. It has to be done and so it is. I'm enjoying it all. We are leaving for a 9 day cruise the day after Thanksgiving, and I am a little concerned about the amounts of food offered to us on the cruise ship. On the up side, the gyms on the ships are excellent, and I will work out every day, an hour a day in the morning, just to keep it on an even level with the eating. Work is work, and the kids are good, which is even better! I am still in love with the most amazing man in the world, so, all in all, life is good. It's always good to read what is going on with all of you. Take care, and be well..... Love, Joanie

I've been thinking of going to weigh****chers too! Almost everyone that I know goes and they all know that I've had the surgery. They think I do not have a problem. What they do not realize is the weight has come off but I still have an eating disorder that I need tokeep in constant control. Seeing as how I am not a controlling type personality it often wins! While I've not gained a tremondous amount since the lowest that I was after surgery (14 pounds) I've worked very hard at keeping it at that ONLY 14 pounds and I say that with a ton of sarcasum. I want that stupid 14 gone. I want to be at the 157 that I fleetingly was for 2 days way back over 3 years ago. I want to wear the size 8's that no longer fit. I shoudl not complain I'm still wearing my size 10's feeling good look good but I want that 8. Do we all live with numbers now??? My curves has closed adn I've been procrastating about joining a gym. funny but back when it was openI couldn't wait til my membership ran out so that i could join a gym but now that it has closed i miss it. And I have gottenuse to having the extra money back in my bank instead of being taken out each month. \guess I have some things to work on! going to look into a gym this week and check out weigh****chers.

I'm realizing that my pride of liking it that others think I don't have to deal with weight issues any more, is making me fail to deal with my issues! What we have is a tool. That means that whether we choose Weigh****chers or other forms of NORMAL EATING DISCIPLINE, that they will work for us now! That should be the source of our pride and our message to those friends that may be watching us. Frankly, I don't like that message as much as the "I'm all fixed now-magic button" message, but it has one advantage--its true. I need to modify the story I tell myself and start doing a better job of behaving this message to others... Thanks for getting me thinking... Joy