Sooooooooooooooooo EMBARESSED...
I know how you feel. I see and read about all these other people and I think , I've just failed at one more thing. I know that everybody is looking at me and thinking , Lord how must has she gained. And some of these people wanted me to fail from the very begining. I try real hard, but I still am just like I was before surgery. I'm either on the program all the way or I'm off of it 100%. I have been loseing the same 5 to 10 pounds over and over all summer. I lost 86 pounds and as of last Tuesday I had gained back 30 pounds. I weighed 199 and that was another wake up call!! I don't want to get over 200 again !! Since Tues. I have gone back on the low carb diet and lost 7 pounds, but I just keep doing this over and over again. I know that when I eat one bite of bread or sugar I just go wild. When I eat carbs I starve all the time. Sheryl, I wish I could say something that would help you. If you know of anyway I can help you just tell me and I will. I will e-mail you , write you, pray for you or what ever. Just know that you are not alone in this. Always know that you can come here and somebody knows how you feel.. A friend from Ga. Judy
HI Sheryl
Welcome & You are so not alone in this!! You might want to come to the off-track board where I also post & see if it can help you get back on trask. Here is the
site: http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/OSSG_Off_track/ It has helped me lose
about 12 of my regain. Still working on the other 30. Hang in there & we will help
you out as much as possible.
Ladybug Marilyn
Sheryl, so glad to see you posting! The most harmful thing we can do to ourselves in this journey is to isolate and stay locked inside our heads with the pain and shame and remorse of returning to old pre-surgery habits. Once we reach out, we can begin the cleansing process of letting go of the shame and related negative feelings; and that is truly the first step toward turning things around. I encourage you to talk things out - if not with us than with a therapist, or someone who can help you sort through with what's going on. Start by identifying what you're feeling and why. What's causing you to eat unhealthily after all that you've been through? For me, I notice that when I'm feeling deeply alone or lonely, I feel a real urgency to fill up that "hole" with food - something to sooth those horrible feelings of being alone. This is all connected to some very bad times in my growing up years, as a little girl. Once I started making those connections, I was able to "let go" - and learn how to take care of myself through the bad feelings. This is not easy!!! None of this is easy. But I will do whatever it takes to stay healthy and fit and strong. You need to find what works for you. Start by getting out of your own way - by getting out of your head - and making the connections you need to start feeling better. I can't recommend therapy strongly enough. In the meantime, we're here for you. All the best, Sheryl. Reenie
Sheryl I have gain 12 lbs. and I am so worry about gaining anymore. It has been 3 years for me and each days doesn't get any easier but I do alot of praying. A weight problem has been with me all my life. An now I have it hard to exercise because I am in a wheelchair. So all we can do is take one day at a time and keep looking upward and onward. Just remember you are not by yourself there is alot of people in this world that as a weight problem. My biggest one is sweets I love them and I try not to buy them. The last time I weigh I had lost 3 lbs. but that has been 2 weeks ago, so I hope and pray it has stay off. You will be in my prayers and thoughts. dianalee1956
Dont feel bad Sheryl...Its so hard...I was once told that the lapband wasnt for me if I liked carbs and sweets...I should get the bypass..but I was afraid. I guess they were right..However, who doesnt like carbs and sweets? Im not a big meat eater..either.
We all know the rules...and we cant punish ourselves; its an addiction as should be treated as such. The band worked before; It can work again...but its hard to keep your emotions out of it...Clear head in this day and age...very difficult.
I lost 70 lbs. and felt so good about myself...until someone said dont lose anymore you will look too old..OMG! Then my Mom died...and the losing went out the door in 6 months time. I went for an adjustment and it was too tight or too lose..My dr. said I probably wouldnt lose anymore..My body was comfortable with 160lbs. I was disappointed and sabatoged everything...Went and still go to a therapist; not helping, I just keep gaining...
Now Im having aches and pains all over, starting with the left shoulder since the day of surgery up until now. MRI says I have rotator cuff tendonitis? Physical therapy and cortisone shots...didnt work. Now Im having right rib and back pain...Im waiting for the results..Probably gallbladder. If I have to get surgery for that Im having them take the band out too...(if possible).
I have tried to eat vegatables and fruit and they get stuck...Im very limited on what I can tolerate. (especially lately) Cant tighten the band because Im at the limit without having water shooting out of my nose and mouth when I sleep. Cant loosen it because there isnt much in there now...
I have to figure this out...If I cant eat whats right...my body is going to hell...Taking vitamins is not enough. More and more pain is going to slow me down...not good. I have decided it has to go......
You have to do what is right for you....
Dont want to shed a negative light on anyone who is getting the band or having problems..but you have to put everything in front of you and figure out whats going on. Im too embarrassed to go face to face with my doc. He will probably just suggest getting the bypass.
Yes, there are some people who will have success with the band...and I applaud them. But, having alot of issues and not eating for the right reasons need alot of training....Good luck...Try again...if thats what you need to do...But dont be embarrassed.....
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