KRISPY KREME

So the Krispy Kreme donuts in the lunchroom have been screaming my name all day long; all week, really. Fundraiser. They brought in boxes of the stuff. I gave in yesterday and the day before, but not today. I won't give in to the screaming inside my head today. Here's why. I work with a man who is very open about his alcoholism and the fact that he is committed to the principles of AA. He attends meetings and retreats regularly. He's a great guy, smart, funny, sensitive, reflective, a terrific human being. I realized late yesterday that if those boxes of donuts were cases of vodka or gin or whiskey, would this man take a swig every time he found himself in the lunchroom? I don't think so. He didn't know it but at that moment, he became my guardian angel. And every time I heard the screaming in my head, I envisioned bottles of alcohol and I thought of this man who fights his demons daily -- just like I do. I feel better today. Seems like I'm the only one posting lately, I hope everyone is okay, living and loving life and each other. Maureen

NOW you're getting it, sweetie! I am so proud of you. Food is our demon. I realized something today. I can eat like I did after surgery....and not be hungry. It makes me feel that much better. AND I lost 4 of the 10 pounds I'm trying to lose. I can do this, I can get down to where I want to be. And YOU, my friend, can deal with the food demons. We all can. Love you, Joanie

krispy kreme was invented by the devil. my son is a manager for that place and brings home boxes and boxes of them. we give them away to the neighbors. i love to see them drool when they see him walking down the street with these hugh clear plastic bags of boxes of donuts. like a sweet delivering santa!

It didn't look like anyone had missed me, so I have kind of stayed away. Glad you are feeling better. I also have one of those cases of Krispy Kremes right in front of me at my register,not only that our Baker makes fresh cinnamon rolls everyday. (they are even harder to stay away from) I haven't gave in Yet!!! Marilyn, the Bearlady

Reenie, That is a great analogy. I will try to invision the same as I hear the carton of Peanut Butter Fudge Ice Cream screaming my name from my freezer. Just to give you an idea of my demons - - - I ran to Super Target yesterday (favorite store!). I bought a box of Whoppers, Choc Chip Cookie dough, Ice Cream and a bag of salad (I guess for good measure). When I got home, my 10 yr old asked me if I was OK - because "it looked like I was about to go into hibertnation mode" (her words). This is my weekend w/ the kids. My hubby and I have has several bad days of late. I'm turning to food as my solace. I sat and read a book last night while I ate from a half gallon carton of that wonderful ice cream. I'm not dealing w/ my food issues in the best way. Hell, I'm dealing with them in the most detrimental way and I can't stop myself. I feel myself getting bigger and bigger, fatter and fatter, my clothes getting tighter, my belly growing as if I were pregnant (perish the thought!). I am out of control and I don't know how to reign it in. It seems as if I'm great at giving everyone else advice, but when it comes to my life, I have no control. So - you are my guardian angel. I will envision you sitting on my shoulder today gently reminding me that this is an addiction and I can turn away from food. I Oh, and thank GOD, Krispy Kreme recently closed out their Houston franchises due to low profits. Houston is one of the fattest cities in the country, so I am surprised that KK weren't making money hand over fist, but I'm glad I don't have that temptation any longer. Whew! Have a wonderful week, sweetie! Hugs, -W-

(((( hugs ))))

Wendy, I'm just seeing your email, so sorry for the delay in responding. I can't imagine finding the courage to go through it...the separation, divorce, finding a place to live, making sure my kids are doing okay, keeping my job, I can't imagine how you're managing. Yet, I know we are very, very close to this point. Tell ya what -- let's just be there for each other...and for everyone else here. That's the very best we can offer of ourselves -- and to ourselves, because support is everything. Take good care of yourself and try, try, try to put the junk down. Tell yourself you deserve so much better. And you do. Love, Reenie