Two years already?
Wow! What a wild ride. Remember worrying together about hair loss, foaming, comparing our diets those first few months? I remember a post when we named our pouches. I named mine Bundy because I was sure it was trying to kill me.
This has been such a wonderful ride. Pre-surgery, I was holed up in my house and had virtually withdrawn from life. There was no doubt in my mind that I wouldn't be around another ten years because if nothing else, I would have willed myself to simply cease existing. I hurt both physically and emotionally. I was miserable. If you had asked me, I would have told you that I was perfectly happy in spite of my weight, but I was lying to myself as much as anyone. Since surgery, I've been to snow machine racing in Alaska, driven through Portugal, sailed on a Catamaran to Africa and toured Spain. Had it not been for wls, I'd still be sitting in my house watching life go by.
I can't say that everything is perfect. I have insulin dumping issues and struggle with plummeting blood sugar on a regular basis. It's kind of comical because my co-workers are used to it and rush to hand me candy and power bars when I start shaking and turn white. I'll gladly put up with this for the rest of my life if I have to because what a life it's turning out to be.
Wrapping my head around this is still tough. I haven't come to terms with what I really look like and I suppose that upcoming plastic surgery will make it even tougher. I'm also accepting that I have a serious food addiction. I struggle with it daily, but I never give up. Sometimes I win and sometimes the Doritos win, but I keep fighting.
I'm so very grateful for this board. I'm accountable to all of you. I don't post every ridiculous thought that goes through my head (lucky you), but I do mentally post all the time. When I get on a binge, I imagine having to post and confess to all of you and it often pulls me out of my feeding frenzy. I feel that I owe it to you guys to stay the course and keep on track. I also feel it is my duty to be a wls example. I'm so tired of hearing stories of people who have gained everything back, of "failed" surgeries. This does work. The surgery won't fail me, but I can fail the surgery and I'm determined not to let that happen. I also feel a strong sense of duty to the people on this board who died two years ago, trying to get their lives back. They risked everything to get where we are today and as crazy as it sounds, I feel like I owe it to them. I have to make the most of this for them as well as me.
Much love to you all and here's to many more years of sharing this tremendous journey together.
Connie
A great post as always, Connie. Yes....it has been quite a ride and continues to be so. And, like you, I'm fighting the ongoing battle with the Doritos (more like pretzels and cheezits in my case)! As I said in my own anniversary post, at least this "tool" levels the playing field a bit and makes the task a bit less daunting. Like you, I have no intention of giving up the fight.....FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!!! I may have these periods of time where I can't do a lot of posting here, but I promise you that I'm not going anywhere. I'll continue to provide whatever support and encouragerment I can to you and all of the rest of the "Marchers".
Congratulations and Happy Anniversary Connie!!
(and good luck with the P.S.)
Mike
And the ride would not have been nearly as entertaining and fun without you, dear lady. In fact, I'll push that envelope to suggest that many of us have stayed aboard our Board because of you! You've done so well; you've been such an inspiration and a great friend. Now you're about to start a new phase, getting rid of the skin. Just you wait until you have your tummy done, Connie! I still marvel at the cuteness of my belly button, which is completely surrounded by flat, firm terrain! I'm so happy for you and -- like my pal, Mike -- I ain't goin' anywhere...love to you, Maureen
Connie, in the last two years I've grown to love our people on the March board and you're one that is special , because on days when I would be down I would click on here and you'd tell one of your wonderful stories and I'd be laughing before I knew it. God bless you in the next year and please keep telling us about what happens with your journey in life. Love ya, Judy
Connie,
Congrats on your 2-year anniversary!!!! And Renie is right you are one of the ones that I keep comming back to hear from. Your posts always lift my spirits when I'm down, and more times than I can count you have left me in tears from laughing so hard. Good luck with your up comming surgery, I will keep you and all the rest of the Marchers in my thoughts as always.
We love ya girl!!
Leslie
I can say without a doubt that I get such a ray of sunshine from you being on this board. Just when I see to be a little down, there seems to be some post from you that drops me from my chair due to laughter.
We lucky to have you here, and best of luck as this is a journey and PS is yet another step.
Connie,
Whew. I read Mikes anniversary posting and Reenies Posting. Each one I thought wow are these people in my head or what?!?!
The addiction point that everyone talks about is exactly how I feel. In the past few months I'm feeling the same thoughts when I would have a cheat that I had before. Its mightly scarey! Like well if I gain alittle bit its ok becasue I've lost alot and I'll lose it again!!!! Yikes. Thats a nightmare. Fortuantely I squish that one as soon as it happens. I look in the mirror. I then look at the "fat" picture that is taped to that mirror. I keep before & after pictures taped to my computer monitor at work and carry a set in my pocket book too!
Cheetos, Doritos, chocolate. These were my old additions now I've developed new ones. Equally probably just as bad. Sugar free just means its made with something else besides sugar it still has calories!!!! who knew! My big addiction right now is sugar free shortbread cookies. ooooo they can bring on a cold sweat. I do limit myself to the 3 cookies per serving. And when I hear the box calling me after I've had my serving for the day I open it up and throw them away. So far so good. I'm listening to the good pammy on the left shoulder over the bad pammy on the right shoulder.
that plus I know if I have more than 3 of those dam sugar alcohol loaded things I'm going to bloat up like a hot air balloon, explode in a big green stinky gaseous cloud, circle around the room a few times and collapse hopefully on a cushioned toilet seat.
good luck and god bless on a continued healthy success of your wonderful gastric by pass ride! pammy
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