Late Dumping: I'm such an idiot!!!

For about 8 months now I have been wondering if I am going through peri-menopause because I keep having hot flashes. They are miserable - I sweat profusely and feel weak and usually I feel like I have to eat RIGHT NOW. Damn things wake me up from a dead sleep. Well, as it just started to happen again all the sudden I realized something, did a little research to confirm it and, YUP - I am indeed a certified idiot! I'm not getting old before my time! I'm a moron who never recognized the fact that not only does she dump immediately she is also a late dumper...especially when she thinks she is being smart and can get away with eating a few jelly beans without getting sick. I never had a clue what I was going through was dumping! I am so thick in the skull sometimes! Seriously though, I guess I thought since I knew I dumped immediately that it ruled out being a late dumper. I just never thought you could do both. How stupid is that? And it makes perfect sense...it's an insulin response, and that would explain why I feel the desperate need to eat carbohydrates immediately. I have low-stinkin-blood sugar! Now I just have to start paying more close attention to find out what is doing me in. All those things I thought I could get away with before might actually be off limits to me. Go figure....I can't sneak around and eat crap and get away with it. You know though, this kind of makes me happy in a really weird sort of way, because it's just one more thing to keep myself in line with. If I don't want to be miserable, I need to be good! Although, I have to say, it's a hard lesson to learn sometimes. I don't know how many times I have decided that I could get away with a tiny bowl of Cap'n Crunch that my son was having only to find myself flat on my back inside of 15 minutes wishing I could throw up! Yet each time I convince myself that the time before I just ate too much. Dense dense dense...... Heyyyyy, I can't find that forest, you guys! These trees are getting in my way!

Why do you think they call this a journey? You can't learn it all at once, and I'm still learning things after nearly two years. One thing that I think is goofy is that my PS must have tighten up my pouch while he was in there. I know he didn't, but I wasn't eating too much, but I can eat less since I got back from the hospital. I have been so wanted to partake in a bowl of sugared cereal, and I have not done it to date. It sure looks good, and I can't blame you for having a little bit. My mistake about a week ago was taking a bite of doughnut. I bought a dozen Krispy Kremes for the office and decided to give it a try. It was a big mistake and I won't be doing it again. Always good to figure things out, even if it is on a delayed basis. Be safe!

LOL! I can relate! Remember, I had a hystorectomy at the same time as WLS. I'm still not sure where the hot flashes come from!! Joy

Dumping is such a relative term....it comes in so many forms! I still dump...the old fashioned way....hugging the toilet seat and praying for it to end. Ray made banana pancakes with walnuts one morning. I ate 1 with sugar free syrup. That dump came from my toes. But then other things that I feel SHOULD make me dump, don't. Ken's right. The journey continues and will do so..... Don't be so hard on yourself. We're all still learning.... Joanie