If my life wasn't already a Mess?

Marilyn, Friends that just love you when they think you are perfect are not really your friends. None of us are perfect, so there is no point in pretending. I want you to know how much I am inspired by your courage in admitting openly the mistake you made, and in your attitude about it. That has to be a hard thing to do, but I so much admire you for taking responsibility. None of us can explain it, but God decided to love us--not because we are good, but because we need loving. There is nothing wonderful that we can do to make Him love us one little bit more, and there is nothing so bad that we can do to make him love us a bit less. That is what grace is all about. Sometimes we forget that and get caught up in trying to be good on our own. If this lapse reminds you, and all of us, of the value of grace, it will have served a good purpose. Hang in there--there is something good around the corner for you. Joy

Thanks Joy, this must be the reason I opened up to you guys as I knew that you would help me pull back out of this funky attitude & it has helped. To everone thanks again. Marilyn, the Bearlady

Marilyn, My thoughts and prayers are with you No judgement here, just understanding. Hang in there things will get better. You have a lot of people pulling for you! Hugs!!! Julie

Marilyn, I think for me Mike said it best "Let he who is without sin, cast the first stone" So also no stones thrown from this corner. I too have done some very out of character things since losing my weight mine however usualy result from drinking wayyyy to much. I am getting better but still have a bit to go. Reenies post really made sense to me. In both our situations. I know I am a better person than I have been acting and I know that you are a fabulouse person in your own right. I think going and getting help is hard and I am sooooo very proud of you for taking the steps to get yourself some assistance. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Love y'a Leslie

Let me join in with the others in being supportive, not being judgemental and sending you our prayers.

Of course, I would never pass judgement on you, but like the others I'm reading a lot into your post that says you are not behaving like the Bearlady we've always known. This could very well be coming out of your depression situation. It certainly sounds like you need to make changes, and going for therapy is the right road. Don't forget that you deserve the best, and don't settle for anything else. When God closes a door, he always opens a window, so don't forget to look for that! Best wishes and prayers going your way, Joanie

Thanks Joanie, After a lot of soul searching this weekend, Yes I have decided that this all has happened for a reason. God is showing the way for me to go & I am taking his lead. So there will be a positive out of this in the end. I just don't know what it is at this point. I know that the boyfriend deal is a big part of my depression & am already starting to make changes to desolve that issue. Thanks again for everyone's support here. It has helped tremendously, more than words can ever say. Marilyn, the Bearlady