I feel sorry for myself !!

Well, ladies, I wasted another week !! I started out everyday doing good then I'd end up eating too much. My school starts back Aug. 6th. I have been at the school doing my ordering and other stuff plus two days I've been in class at the central office learning a new program we will be using next year. We've been doing everything on the computer for over 15 years, but , We are the first cafeterias in Ga. to do this new stuff. I've been a Nutrition Manager for 24 years. When I first started this job I went in the stock room and checked what I needed, I wrote what I needed on a piece of paper and a salesman came by and got my order and the truck brought it to me the next day, and we put it on the shelf. When the kids bought their lunch they got a ticket from the secretary in the main office. When they came to lunch they gave us the ticket. Now, every few months they keep doing stuff to make my job easier !!! I never have time to go out in the kitchen and help my staff and I don't have much time to talk to the kids. I'm in my office on the computer all the time. I'll be at the school most of next week working. On top of all the new computer work and the new cashier program we're going to, I'll be so stressed out I won't know if I'm coming or going. On top of all the other stuff , we got a new Nutrition Educator Coordanator that has made all new menus and all new recipes . The recipes are for anywhere from 15 to 50 people and I'll have over 600 in my school this year, so I've got to increase all the new recipes. So this is going to be hard trying to get back on track at this time. I have been able to lose 1 pound this week. So, I know I'm not going to lose the weight I wanted to by Aug. 1 , but I'm not going to give up!! We're all in this together and just coming to the board helps me to know that I'm not along. Let's all do good next week !! Love ya, Judy

You did not waste a week. You spent the week wisely, learning the skills and doing the tasks that you need for the coming school year. You managed the stress that was involved, and in spite of it, started each day with wise choices. OK--some of those choices changed through the day. The point is that you are living life and hanging in there. You are making an important contribution. You are trying to balance care for yourself with care for others. I'm proud of you. Joy

Thanks, you are right I really didn't waist the week. I did live and learn everyday. Everytime I make a wise choice , it means I DID NOT make bad one. Thanks for the encouragement. Judy

isn't it great that life is so much 'easier" now! i chuckle- i used to write the lunch tickets for my mil when she managed a cafeteria! hundreds of those tickets- i felt like i knew the kids! judy-don't give up! you have it right to look at each day as a new beginning! keep making those good choices and it will happen!

Thanks to friends like you and the other girls, I'm not going to give up. I know I can come here and find a friend that knows just what I'm going throught. Judy

Judy I have a love/hate relationship with computers. They are suppose to help us and they do alot of times but sometimes the simple old fashion way was so nice. I too have been given not only computers but other tools inmy job that are suppose to make things easier for me. I think all the do is make it easier for others and its a line they feed us to make themselves feel better! And reports!!!!! God I hate reports!!!!! O these reports are not only going to make our job easier but they will also make less errors. So far I've found more errors than we even thought of but the errors we're finding aren't so much inthe system as to order entry. Who are all stressed out over their new ways to make them more productive. I'm in sales. I should be out on the road selling. That helps makes money for my customer, my business and for me. But by the time we look at our daily report, weekly report, montly report, then check the contract report, error report, finaincal report, I know I've missed something it fills my head all the time and I do not get out on the road to sell until almost lunch time. have to be back in house by 3:30 becaseu then there are deadlines O don't forget to check the report about what you have running the next day! (I'm in sales for a newspaper) AND when You come into the building 50 people run up to you with questions about their reports that somehow you've affected! I think I want to go work on a farm. Do you have reports to fill out for milking cows? what about collecting eggs? Ut oh those cows and chickens better be productive or they'll be dinner the next night! i feel for you judy i really do. it gives you alot of stress to think about what you have to do the beginning of august.

that felt good to vent! thats what I like about this board!

Thanks, it helps to hear from people like you, that know the challenges I face each day. But if we keep in touch we can help each other. Judy

Judy, have I ever told you what a beautiful smile you have? Honestly, when I see your smile (your little thumbnail photo), I smile right back atcha - did you know that??? I think you and I are following the same trajectory with this WLS journey - and I'm betting we're not alone. Let's do something together right now, right this minute: let's celebrate what we're doing right! Just for today - here's my list: I CELEBRATE: (1) movement!!! I realized on Saturday that I am taking for granted the gift of being able to move my body joyfully, and with great zeal for living. In one day, I took my new (neurotic) pup for a 4 mile hike; climbed aboard a nearly 17H horse and spent the next hour squeezing my butt-cheeks and upper thighs to make him go where I wanted him to go; and settled easily into my new little kayak that hubby bought me for my birthday and then glided through tha****er like an Olympian, screaming YIPPEE!! most of the way and laughing like crazy. My biceps are BUFF!! So I celebrate my STRONG BODY. (2) Love. Every day I try to love hard and often in any small way that I can. I try to love this new dog even though she reminds me so painfully of Sophie; I love my son through his rediculous adolescent, self-centeredness and conciously try to steer him in the direction of GIVING of himself rather than TAKING for himself. I LOVE THIS BOARD AND ALL OF YOU. (3****lebrate good food. I took special care last night to thoroughly wash a new head of Boston lettuce; I arranged it lovingly on the plates set out for my family and filled it with good protein choices and natural dressings. It was delicious. I celebrate the abundance of FRUIT that is all around us. Oh, there's so much to be proud of and happy about! I'll leave you with this one thought: don't for a moment let that computer come between you and those children at the school. If I am one person affected by your smile across our virtual worlds, imagine how your smile has the POWER to affect the days--maybe the lives--of those kids, some of whom may not have anyone else in their lives that take the time to smile and say something nice to them. Be well, my dear friend. I'm right there with you - here's to AUGUST...new goals, new beginnings...old friends. Love you HUGE. Reenie

Reenie, thanks for saying that about my smile. When school starts back next week I'll remember what you said and smile more. I know I have made a difference in the kids lives and that is really why I've been there almost 25 years. I've worked in several different jobs, but my school job is where I'm supposed to be. I worked in a bank for 10 years and I hated it everyday. Now I fuss about what I do , but really it's where my heart is. I've been living here within two miles of where I was born and I used to know everybody and when a kid had a problem I would hear about it and I give them them a little extra attention. Now I can't even pronouce some of the kids names, because we have people from all over the world here. But I can pretty well tell when a kid needs a friend. Today I want to celebrate, too. #1. I have a great husband. I had been divorced for 27 years when we married and did not think there was a good man in the world. But, after I married I see other people are happy too. So, God did bless me with Charles. #2. I want to celebrate that my Mother went home to be with the Lord March 30th of this year and she does not have to live in a nursing home trapped in a body that did not work anymore. I miss her but I don't worry about here anymore. She was my best girlfriend. #3. My only sister (only the two of us and neither one of us have children ) lives next door to me and we're very close. #4. I still weigh under 200. I could not say that for many, many years. I remember the day I got under 200, it was a wonderful day. #5. At 59 years "young" I feel better than I did in my 30's and 40's. You're right here's to August, we can all do better starting tomorrow. It's a new day and a new month. Love ya, Judy