Food Addict

I just read Reenie's post about food addiction. I truly and an addict. We left home on Wed. and I got a bag of bubble gum. I had not had sugar in 7 days. Well, I chewed the whole bag of 50 pieces!! From there I ate like an idiot. I just didn't fall off the wagon I jumped off of it down a cliff. We got home Sunday evening and I weighed this morning I have gained all I lost the 7 days I did the challenge. I started over again this morning. I'm mad at myself, but I'm not going to let it get me down !! It's no excuse, but I couldn't help but wonder if this would be the last time we would go on vacation together. Please keep praying that Charles' cancer is not back. It will be a long wait till Sept. till the next PSA test. Judy

stress makes me eat too.

Judy, the whole point of that program seemed to be that people addicted to food have very little control over it; now we can't buy into that hook, line, and sinker because we would be lost if we truly believed we have absolutely no Free Will in deciding - and controlling - what goes into our bodies. Right now, at this stage of my recovery and my life, I get up every morning with resolve to do the one thing that continues to work for me: redirect my energy toward living and loving my life and away from obsessing about food. It's a strategy, that's all. Is it easy? Hell no. Does the food still scream inside my head, especially when I'm stressed-or sad, or angry, or whatever...Hell yes. Life happens, the good and the bad of it. This will never, never change. But I CAN change how I respond to all of it, the good and the bad of it. And there's plenty of bad, bad, bad stuff happening all of the time. All I can do is get up in the morning and say to myself, no matter what happens today, I am committed to taking good care of myself. I am WORTH IT. I will think all good and positive thoughts about you and Charles. Jim's brother is recoverying from prostate cancer, had the thing removed, and the cancer appears to have been contained. I wish Charles well. Keep us posted, Judy. And stay close. Yesterday is gone, you've committed to today and that takes an incredible amount of strength of character. I'm damned proud of you. Love, Reenie