Surviving Thanksgiving

Hello everyone. I hope that you all had a fantastic Thanksgiving. My mother and sister live in New Hampshire. It was a very nice day of snow. My son, his finance and my daughter all decided to drive up the night before because of the snow forecast. I'm glad that we did because I hate driving in that stuff. I've got alot to be very thankful for. My 85 year old mother had just gotten out of the hospital on tuesday morning from congesitive heart failure. She is doing great! She also went in the afternoon to have surgery done on a catarat! I wish I had 1/2 that womens energy sometimes! She has some health concerns at 85 who wouldnt'? Hopefully she will be around for many more thanksgivings. My sister is 59. Mom lives with her. I'm very worried about how my sister will adjust when mom passes on so again I'm hopeing that doesn't happen for many years. We had a full table of food. Turkey, potatoes, squash, gravy, corn, peas, breads, butter, cranberry sauce, you name it it was there. Then the desserts!!!!! It was enough to stretch a pouches sides! I didn't bring my scale but I was very careful and did the eye check to make sure the turkey wasn't any bigger than the palm of my hand. I had a teaspoon of gravy, a tablespoon of corn, peas, and potatoes, cranberry sauce, & squash. I had just alittle bit of everything and left a good amount on my plate. I had desserts too. when I say a sliver it was a sliver! of pumpkin pie. There was a chocolate chip cheese cake that I had a taste of. It just didn't taste good to me too sweet. Never did think I'd ever say something was just to sweet! I had 1/2 of a 1/2 of a small dinner roll with a teaspoon of real butter on it. Now the amazing thing is I wasn't much of a butter eater before but I did enjoy what I had! that night at leftovers dinner I had just turkey with some potatoes. All in all I believe I did good. I dont have a scale and won't see one til monday but friday I was right back to what I normally do each day. so here is my deliema, isn't there always a deliema? I feel fat. when i was dressing I thought I could see the fat crawling right back on my waist, sides, arms, face. i felt so ugly because i ate more than i normally do even though i didn't eat even a 1/4 of what everyone else ate. now i'm back in Connecticut and checking all the mirrors in my house to see if maybe their mirrors were the kinds that make you look bigger than you are. no its me. I'm fat! Now I"m even feeling like my pants which were lose are now fitting me like they did a few pounds ago. is anyone else going through this strange feelings? I know that I did'nt gain that much if I even gained at all. Its all in my head how I think I look! I'm not fat! I don't have fat crawling back on me! Oh sure if I ate like I did on thanskgiving I'm sure that fat would start crawling back on but I don't. I'm a thin person now. Is this how thin people think? is this why the ones who stay thin or regular all the time think? they are careful. I'm not goign to become the anerxia type who won' teat all at. I'm righ tnow planning what I'll have for dinner and its healthy. i'm not too too concerned about these crazy feelings becuase I am careful and keep in touch with my pouch and head, just more curious if others are going through them too. good luck and god bless

Pam, I think your delimma is twofold: first, there is the body dysmorphia that we continue to struggle with, that is, not seeing our bodies realistically, as they really are; secondly, I do believe that as time passes, our bodies are "shifting" into place, making continual adjustments to being normal-sized. This is normal and will continue to evolve as we continue to evolve. The only defense we have is aerobic exercise and weight training, to continue to turn the fat into lean muscle mass. This is our reality, as it is for everyone else, no matter their size. Good luck with everything, I'm struggling with the same issues, and then some. Maureen