Fessin' Up!!

I'm here today to confess my sins: While I encourage any reply you wish to make, I'm not really looking for sympathy. I know exactly what I've done and exactly why I've done it as well as what I need to do about it. I simply feel that I need to get it out in the open, clear my head and get back on track. I HAVE BEEN REALLY BAD LATELY!!!!! I have been eating way too much of all of the wrong things and getting way too little exercise. The reasons are simple although not good excuses. I'm still out of work following my shoulder surgery, but I can't do things around the house because of the shoulder. I'M GETTING REALLY BORED!!! Until this weekend, It has been raining non-stop for over a week which always depresses me. As a result of the rain, I've cut back on the walking because I hate the treadmill with a passion. And finally, Since I've used up all of the sick time I've accumulated since my WLS, I'm off without pay which worries me. DEPRESSION, FINANCIAL WORRY, AND BOREDOM.....a recipe for trouble for this boy!!! The only good news here is that I haven't been bad enough to put on noticable weight beyond my normal fluctuation. Now for the solution. The sun is out and I'm hitting the exercise hard. I've started back on a more healthy eating pattern. If the company medical department OKs me on Friday, I'll be back to work Sunday night which will hopefully relieve the boredom and resolve the financial worry. While it's great to know the reasons for this behavior and the soultion to same, it would be wonderful to figure out how to stop heading for the refrigerator as my answer to stress and boredom. Thanks for letting me vent, Marchers.......I'm getting back on track. Have a great day and a good week. Mike

I can certainly relate to the being out of work/bored/eating wrong/financial worry situation. I gained about 8 pounds since I've been home from work---and I've made a promise to myself to be more selective in my food choices and the amounts of food I'm eating. Also, here's another confession....since we're on a role here... I HATE TO EXERCISE!!!! Yes, that's right. I said it. I hate the gym, I hate Curves, I hate it all. Why? I have no clue. If I exercised, I know things would be better..and God knows I have all day to spend in the gym if I wanted to. What is wrong with me????? Joanie

I'm not here to wag a finger at all, but I have found something remarkable. I have been regularly exercising, but I've been bored. REALLY bored. Walking and jogging bore me to no end, but I did it to be good. Weight lifting doesn't thrill me at all. Swimming is good, but I don't have easy access to a pool. But... A couple weeks ago, I got on a bike. Suddenly I understood people that like exercise. Biking just clicks with me...I love doing it to no end. I can understand the guy in our group that loves hiking and walking. I think a large part of actually exercising is finding the one that clicks for you. Maybe there aren't any...maybe they'll all be a grind. But I do know if you find one that clicks, it's a great time. Eric C.

Wow Eric! I read your profile. You have had quite a journey, but your attitude is TERRIFIC! There is nothing easy about this, but it is exciting, and I fully agree that it is up to each of us to find a way to snatch victory from the jaws of defeat each day. Thanks for posting. It is good to see you again. Joy

I wish I could say that I've got your back covered but I'm fully exposed as it is! Every day I realize more and more that I am in for the fight of my life. All I know for sure Mike, is that I'm in it for the long haul, with you, for you, as long as you need me. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm trying to force my fanny out the door for my workout. Did you make the meeting on Thursday? Maureen

Well Mike, I can only say I am right there with you on this eating thing. Even though I am not eating a lot, I am grazing and that can be very bad for us as we all know. Stress will kill us all & if I had the answer of how to deal with it without eating I sure would give it to you. I have actually lost weight & am now at 202 so close to being below the stupid number thing that I have been fighting with for so long. I am going to the gym tonight as there is a group of gals from work that are going together a couple of times a week. I have to go more often than that or I won't go at all. So I am going with them on 2 nights & 2 nights by myself. Hang in There I bet your days will be better as soon as you get back to work. Oh Yeah and that Sunshine will help too, I bet. Marilyn, the Bearlady.

Vent away. The good news is that you're not continuing the behavior and taking your stable weight for granted. Years ago, I lost 80 pounds through a very restricted diet and working out 3 or 4 hours a day. I was training like a professional athlete and eating between 800 and 1000 calories with about 20 grams of fat. It was brutal and it took me almost 2 years to lose that weight. During the holiday season, I thought I'd have a few cookies and chips here and there and start back on the diet after the first of the year. I didn't gain any weight the first week or two and thought I was home free. A few chips led to a few bags of chips and before I knew it, I was back to my old eating habits and gained all of my weight and then some back in less than a year. After the first of the year, I never could get my motivation back. It sounds like you're not taking anything for granted and you're gettiing back on track. I'm proud of you! Hugs, Connie

Hey Mike, I am a stay ay home mom and I know all too well about your situation. I worry about Money.....(It would cost 200 a week in child care) and I don't want others raising my children. I am also depressed during the winter months. I hear ya bro......... Just remember this, You HAVE had the blessed surgery that many of us pray to have soon and if you dedicate yourself to "bet you can't loose ### LBs by December" attitude with yourself.....you can have a game and a goal to play and attain FOR YOURSELF. This is not to get you frustrated just to get you back on track....It is easy to get down and complacent in were we are but if we keep our eyes on were we are going...we will see a light at the end of a snowy tunnel. AKA winter months. Cheers to a new you...keep your chin up and when things get too hard to face....God is always there to listen...and so am I God Bless You, Erin PS...I am new to this site, but I have a home already...I love this place!

me too Mike!! I have the same triple ingredients for trouble!!! Your post was inspiring....I even peeked out my heavily shaded windows to see that the sun IS indeed shining. And life is as good as I make it to be. Thanks for the inspiration.Now WHERE is that shovel to start digging myself out of this hole??