I'm Just Numb
Connie, if you can collect your thoughts and feelings and if you wouldn't mind, I'd really like to hear about your thoughts on happiness...the post you were trying to write but aborted. Your insight is miraculous at times and going back to this post might be very therapeutic for you...give it a try when you feel up to it and I for one will keep a lookout for it. Love to you, Reenie
Reenie,
After things die down around here (sick pun not intended), I'll sit down and put thoughts to keyboard. Today I'll be focused on getting my second appeal for PS written (*******s), taking food to Kathie and Tony's family and a production problem at work. I also have to go to Home Depot because today is the last day to use a 10% off coupon and there's a router I've been wanting to get and Penney's has towels on sale this evening, and friends are coming over for dinner. Isn't it funny how the world keeps turning, no matter what may be going on in your personal universe?
The pursuit of happiness is a topic that holds a great fascination for me so I won't let it go; I'll be thinking about it as I go through my day.
Much love,
Connie
She snapped. She just plain snapped. I talked to a therapist yesterday and I guess I finally decided that it's OK to grieve Tony, support Kathie's family and our friends and be angry with Kathie. I can't get around what Kathie did was just plain wrong and I can't find an excuse for it. She had options and lots of support, it never should have come to this. I've been told that I'll be called on to testify in the trial and I'm angry to be put in that position.
Thanks so much, all of you, for your support. I know that I can always come here and find a friendly ear (or pair of eyes). I'm off to take some food to Kathie's family and Tony's kids. I'm going to have a tough time when they post bond on Tuesday because I really don't want to see her, but I do want to be there for her mother.
Love,
Connie
Connie,
Hang in There!! None of your thoughts will ever bring Tony back, but,
feeling is a part of life & you have to face Kathie at least once to try to
deal with this a little better. It will be hard, but if you can find out what
actaully happened, Maybe it will look different. I can only imagine what
you are dealing with. We are here if you need to vent.
Marilyn, the Bearlady 
Gosh, what an awful thing to happen...I'm so sorry to hear it. I guess the glass can only hold so much before it just overflows....but as you said, she did have options, and they should have been taken before something so drastic had to happen. As always, thoughts and prayers are with you. Feel free to vent to us....
Joanie
Dear Connie:
I just thought I would point out that although you saw that your friend had many ooptions, maybe she didn't see them. A lot of people stay in situations that I could just walk away from. Her perceptions were her truth, so maybe she really felt backed into a corner and saw no other options but to do what she did. I'm not offering an excuse but one never knows what another person is really going through unless one walks in their shoes.
All the best to you.
Pat
Oh Connie I am so sorry for your loss of your friend...Depression seems to be high with WLS, as i have been reading the main board as well and alot of people going through it.....I too have my ups and downs with it sometimes..Hun i know you feel as if there was some way you could have stop the outcome of Katies death but hun there was nothing you could do. Sounds to me as if you tryed being a good friend to both of them. Dont beat yourself up so hard...I read this post last night and couldnt sleep thinking about you...I prayed for you last night...and I hope you can bounce back from this real soon....( lots of hugs )
Misty
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