Summer used to be fun, when we were kids..
Remember when we were kids, and summer was fun and carefree? Its seems most of us have some kind of issues going on and it is making all of our summers living hell.
I spent the morning packing theboyfriends clothes up, and my family acts like this is such a good thing, and in my heart, its not, and they act like i should just turn my feelings off, and i can't. I just can't. I just I will always just be the girl that does what her family wants her to do to make them happy, So i will fall into the roll of being a stepford wife for the next 40 years. Geee can you se how happy i am? I do love my husband, but the boyfriend too. Why can't i merge them into one, and have the perfect man??
Its funny that losing the weight was what it took to make my husband realize what he wanted in life, and it seemed before he didn't notice me at all, tilll someone else noticed me. And if i would have just stayed fat, i never would have meet the boyfriend at all, and my heart wouldn't be breaking. When we got our new bodies, i guess they forgot about the new hearts. That was the one thing that I can't lose is my heart and my feelings and all that.
So i gues I just will slip into my roll as the stepford wife and go from there.
Thats why i want to be like 12 years old just for another day. Carefree and free as the breeze.
Tanya,
It was extremely hard for me to leave my boyfriend after 7 years. I
did!! I can't say I am all that happy about it, but, I am starting to
realize how much of a damper he put on things. In the 14 months after
WLS I never got from him once that I looked good or I did the right thing.
I would here from everyone else that he would talk about how well I
was doing, but, never would tell me. I moved by myself & the Dogs of
course & accept fro depression (that i had before I moved as well) I feel
wonderful. He was also an alcoholic & that was our big Down fall. He did
not want to get any help for the problem & I could not stay anymore. You
have to decide what is right for you. Do not stay in a relationship because
your family wants you too! I talked about my split with his family a great
deal before I did it & Just finally had to Move by myself. Hang in There!!
I hope you make the right decision about your life. & start feeling good
about YOU!! You deserve more & beliver me I do no how hard it is to make
those changes. But you have too!!
Marilyn, the Bearlady 
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