summer's here!

HIYA! It's summer and the living is good. We celebrated the end of the school year with a visit to the local water park and I did something I have NEVER done before...I went down the double person slide with my husband! very fun of course the steps UP to the top of the slide nearly killed me (why do they have to be concrete and practically completely vertical????) UGH!!! My kids were thrilled to do this and we had a wonderful time! The last 9 weeks of school were HORRIBLE!!! My class was very HARD this year, very low academically, very immature, very unsupportive parents and the last quarter it all basically hit the fan, we had fist fights, bites that broke the skin and STILL had parents believe their precious angel wouldn't do anything like that, while Aunties are there saying you know little precious bite his/her cousin at granny's house... UGH!!!! I am emotionally drained and consequently used my friend FOOD to re-fuel...so I am sitting here mid monthly cycle at 200 pounds. I am in tears. I know as soon as my cylce is over I will drop 5 pounds of water but still. I tried to go to the gym today and of course no baby sitter, I took the kids to the pool but the water was so cold, I shivered and could barely swim, why is it I am so stinking cold all the time... Idid walk today tho, with my "rollerblading" girl, who is sitll too afriad to release the vulcan death grip on my hand! I did get in all the liquids, and did good on protein and vitamins but evidently I am going to have to be one of those people who HAVE TO, HAVE TO, exercise constantly to maintain a low weight. I don't want to be 160 pounds I did that and it looked scary! too thin and too much hanging skin to look good ya know??? I know I don't feel comfortable in my skin anymore, and I don't like that. The feeling of deep despair is right outside the door and the knocking is loud enough to scare the **** out of me. SO my question (after this long post sorry!) is how much weight is reasonable to loose this summer if I am really working on it?? any ideas ? any suggestions? I am going to try to post very regulalry if only for myself no real replies will be necessary ya know??? I gotta get this, I want my kids to have a healthy relationship with food and not see their mom struggle with yo yo doeting and all that crap that I WILL not go back to again! ugh... thanks! nic feeling really fat again and hating it

Nicole You have my total admiration for being a teacher! I think it takes a special person for that vocation. My weight is hanging in about 190 (after a low in the mid 170s) and I am close to total frustration. For the most part my food is good and I do get to the gym 5 to 6 days a week .. for 30 to 40 minutes/day. I know that I am in good physical shape .. actually yesterday when I was at the hospital for my procedure .. the nurse in the short stay unit asked me if I worked out because my pulse was so good. That made it (not quite) all worth it! I look down and see a roll of flab around my middle, yet don't really see it in the mirror .. not sure how to deal with that. I do know I have clothes I can't wear that I was wearing a year ago, so I need to really get back with it too. You post and I'll read!! And try to be here for you. Hugs & smoochies, Mo

Nic, I think that after three years, it's wonderful to still discover new benefits of ws. Getting to go down the double slide with your husband must have felt wonderful. Just being able to get up the stairs must have been great. I don't know how much weight is reasonable to lose this summer because we seem to lose slower than we used to. I know I have to remain constantly vigilant or my eight will sky rocket (and I'm not saying that I do stay vigilant). It's much harder now to get weight off than it was 2 or 3 years ago. Hugs, Connie