Hypnosis Anyone?

It's killing me and I still have smokes! Right now, this very second, I'm avoiding going home. I tried to talk to him this morning and basically he just said the same things he said last night. He feels that either SUB or Conciously one or the other part of me didn't want to. He's right. I for some reason enjoy a smoke. I will try to give them up but fear that I'll be doing it for him and end up either starting again or resenting the hell outta him. He is loving and supportive, I have no clue why he went on the attack. Well, no that's not quite right either. I THINK he thinks that I'm doing it to prove I'm an adult and no body can make me do anything that I don't want to. He has said as much! He thinks I'm just being stubborn and wow if only I could be THAT stubborn I'd manage to quit in a wink. I have quit twice. Both times for five weeks at a time. Don't know what it is about the fifth week but that's the one that bites me. I was telling him just the other day that I have chosen my quit date. The day after my one year. That way I won't be *****y (can I say that here?) and will enjoy the day. Then this hypnosis thingy came up and he was all for it. I however, obviously, wasn't. I have tried it twice before and it didn't work. I think where I might be running into the road block is in THERAPUTIC situations because as I mentioned before I have been hypnotized at the fair several times. I have a mental condition that requires close gaurding of my mental facilities. I will share it with you my closest million friends in hopes that you might be better able to understand my situation. I was SEVERELY abused as a kid. As a result I developed DID, dissociative Identity Disorder. Also commonly known as Multiple Personalities. Remember Sybil? She and I have the same problem. Or mostly the same. Anyway that situation requires close gaurding of all that is me, of all that is us. That's why I think the problem comes only with therapy situations. That's some serious stuff while laughing and giggling at the fair is totally non threatening. Can I explain this to my husband? I can only try. Will he listen? I can only hope! I want to say thanks guys for cheering me on and giving me hope that I too will one day be a non smoker.... just between us friends, it was easier to quit speed than it is to quit smoking! Till most likely Monday.... L&H Gayle

You know what I find interesting? You mentioned before that you were also bipolar and yet you always seem to be smiling and one of the most upbeat people here on the board. It's amazing to me the things people go through and survive. It really saddens me to hear that people suffer such abuse as kids...so much so that I sometimes dwell on it. But obviously life goes on and people can get better. Do you find that you have good control with your therapy and meds? I agree with you that maybe hypnosis isn't a good idea - especially since you need to be more in control than that allows. Best to just keep plugging at it. The thing is, the more you keep quitting, the more likely you are to be successful in the future. The other thought I had was something my sister who is a nurse told me. She said if I could cut down to 2 cigarettes a day it would be no worse than living in a city and the pollution exposure one receives. I think that helped me because it gave me something comforting to fall back on a bit when I was feeling weak. Dina