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thats the mood im in. i need to work out each morning but haven't been getting up early enough. i wake at 2 am with work thoughts running in my head. i fall back asleep and wake at 3am wiht bill thoughts then repeat it all with other worries each hour until its time to get up for work. for some reason i dont' fall asleep during the daytime and work just fine but i'mnot gettign the sleep i should. things will work out i worry that i'm always goign to have money problems and what happens as i get older? righ tnow things with the money are ok. bills are paid on time thank you! in the same month too! thank you very much! but this is the first year that has happeend. i've been turnign over a new leaf and so far this year i've kept my new years resolution! ]the thing that runs thuoght my head is surprise surprise i'm not gettign any younger. i'm (gasp) getting older! whats going to happen to me? i'll be in a state run nursing home were they arent goign to be as careful with our tender tummys. which brings me to another worry. what happens to us as we age? anyone know anyoen who ahd the surgery who made it to old? like in the mid to late 70's? what happens to us then huh? i have two birds up i nmy living room righ tnow who are blowing kisses up a storm to each other! the african grey blows kisses that would make the worlds best kisser jealous. he puts such emotion and punch into that. the little senegal parrot who isn't a talker is so dam thrilled with himself cause he has learned how to make a sound other than peep. the two of them are in oppisite cages. it is ariot to hear them. if they were out of the cages they would probably have a bird fight but in the cages the love is flowing. when i come home the african grey yells WOOOOOO Mommies home! hahaha I love it. he started that the first week home every night when I come in I say Hi guys mommies home and he picked it up. its a riot cause i have a high whiney voice and he sounds alot like me! the freaky thing is the other night i was upstairs and i heard a conversation in my lving room between a man and a woman. the african was doing both parts! that was alittel bit odd. he sounded jsut like a person not a bird mimicing a person.