reflections of my life..........journey

Well Christmas has come and gone... I made all the fudge and cookies about 4 batches each for the family, and glad that part is all over with..and am proud of myself for I didn't taste any of it....had to have my hubby taste to let me know it was good or not but all was ok. I did eat a few to many crackers and am ready to get back on track....I had a trip to the hospital 2 days after christmas with a bowel infection....I new something was wrong but had to get thru the holidays.....but on meds now and getting a little better..still not up to par yet..... I think I will try only liquids today as to let my body heal...... I was very depressed at not hearing from my son but today I finally got an email from his ship..... he is ok.....can't tell me what they are doing and christmas wasnt' good for him but he is ok. I had christmas with my family and my sister had the same surgery about a year before me....but is able to eat everything even sweets and she does. I wonder why she would do this ..... why would she test the waters....but we are all different....I am happy that I don't want to try this.... I have come to far to turn back now..... eveyone was in aw at what I looked like ....did me good to hear how nice they thought I looked.... I have about 20lbs to go to where I want to go but is really hard to lose...I gained 5 lbs in the hospital and am trying to lose that now........so today I go to liquids....protien liquids of course.... it is hard to go back to all liquids for my body or me like to chew on something too.... liquids do not fill me up for very long... I had my surgery in march of this year and have only a few months to go for the one year mark and would love to be at goal.....so I have a lot of work to do.....but if I give it my all and stay where I am at I will except it as its where I should be....but will always try to do better... not giving up ever.. I am happy I have done this and can do so many more things now...I am a healther person....... we all should be proud of ourselves......we have all come a long ways......but our outlook is so much better......stay true to yourself and all keep up the good work with your new lives........thanks to so many of you for being there for me ....sorry this is so long just think I needed to talk a little to the people who understand what I go thru too. Donna

Sorry about the infection, but otherwise it sounds like you are doing great! How did you get the infection? Is it a complication of WLS? Glad your son is OK--that is what matters. You are doing great and should lose the rest of your weight easily. Great attitude! Joy -75

You are such a good girl! I have myself tried those sweets, and although they can make me sick I still stick my toe in tha****er from time to time. Why, indeed! I ask myself why I would dare eat a cookie when I know there is a 50/50 chance I will dump and have a miserable 3 hours. It's times like those that I am happy I had the RNY over the DS or the lap band because if dumping is not enough of a deterrent for me, then I would be afraid of what I would do with the other surgeries. Of course, you never know until you are there. I could have a totally different perspective and not be wanting to pu**** and try those waters as much either. Kind of like that give and inch, take a mile thing. I used to be such a good dieter too!!! I'm glad to hear your son is doing well - it has to be so very hard having a child in the service. My heart goes out to you and all the other family members of the military. Here's to next year being a much happier Christmas for him/you. Dina