A wow moment for me
So yesterday at work Im walking around talking about how I hate my hanging skin blah blah blah and telling everybody after they are telling me how great I look that if I took my clothes off they'd all throw up(LOL). So this one kid that I work with(he's 17 and such a cutie) I ask him how much he thinks I weigh and he says "about 110" and I look at him like he's crazy and he starts guessing lower and I say "Andrew I weigh 135" and he says "no way, you look tiny" So I go up to the other guy and girl that I work with and ask them to tell me truthfully how much do they think I weight and the guy says 115 and the girl says she thinks about the same and I'm standing there in amazement because I think I look all of my 135 pounds so I tell them and they both are saying "no way do you weigh 135 pounds". So Im saying ok maybe I dont need to loose anymore weight and try to maintain now until my TT. Even when I was 215 people would guess me at around 160-175 and that always made me happy too.
I just thought I would comment on how we still kinda have these distorted images of ourselves and its not always what we think we see when we look in the mirror.
~Nicole
215/135/whatever
Allo I hav eto say is....
My mind deceives me.
I ate and ate.
Never seeing my weight problems in the mirror before.
Now as I lose weight.
My mirror and mind mind continue this.
I am sometimes worried that I may lose to much
and won't be aware of it.
I am wearing a size 6 some 8's now.
I remember thinking that size was so small before.
Now I think l wont be happy untill I am wearing a 4.
Even if it is to small for my body.
I wish I had a solution to this.
All I know is it scares me sometimes.
It makes it hard for me to shop. Knowing how I deceive myself.
JULIE, JULIE, JULIE...I relate to your fears as I think many of us do, HOWEVER, if you are really stressing this much over being in a size 6 because you need to be in a size 4...honey, you are running a great risk of becomming anorexic. RUN, do not walk, RUN to a therapist who specializes in food and body image issues. This is a very real problem, especially for women. PLEASE take care of this NOW. We're on your side. Best, Maureen
What a terrific tale, Nicole, thanks for sharing. Someone came into my office yesterday and told me I looked "tiny" -- I laughed very heartily as no one in my life has ever used that word in descriptive terms about me, EVER. And, of course, at 192, I am no where near "tiny" however comparatively speaking, I suppose losing a half of yourself can lead people to view you as much smaller than you really are. Maureen