I know you'll all understand...

pammy157
on 10/28/04 9:02 am - colchester, CT

Whenever I get nervous about anything to do with the surgery I come on line and head right for my "march group". I know that I will read others with the same concerns that I have. Yes I can eat more now than I could a few weeks ago. And I worry that I'll fail. Because this is the first time that I feel normal sized, eat healthier, wearing wonderful clothes (who knew I'd ever wear a size 14!!!!), and my knees are fantastic, well, I don't want to lose these wonderful things. For the first time in all of my past heavy life I am happy with me. I like me. I don't want to go back to the old me. So I am working hard at remembering the rules, water, excersize, protein. Each one is hard to do but I try. Sure I'm not perfect I never will be. Reading these postings helps me to understand that we haven't gotten cured. What we have done is gotten ourselves help. Now we need to remember how we worked so hard to get here. From that first scarey step of researching to find our answers & doctors, to see if we qualified, fights with insurance companies, the frustration of waiting, the wanting, the awful fight with that 10 pounds loss before surgery. gee this list could go on and on! It would include that first amazing step on a scale a few weeks after surgery, that first 30, 40, 50 pounds, that fitting in a size that was only a dream, What about that first guy or gal giving you the "look" that says hey your pretty dang cute! Each day is a new one of choices. With our new tummy tool we have given ourselfs a better chance at winning. Gee if I was never to lose another pounds I'll still feel great! I should compain? Almost 7 months ago I was 277 pounds, wearing a size 26 that was tight, couldn't hardly walk up a flight of stairs without extreme pain while pulling myself up them and I couldnt hardly talk for lack of oxygen when I got to the top! Now i'm 186 pounds, wearing size 14, up and down those stairs without even thinking about it and yakking while I do it too! In less than a year. remarkable, amazing, totally awesome. I've read some great stories on this sight. We are all @#%* fantastic! Lets keep up the great work! good luck & god bless, pam