6 months down & a lifetime to go........

I can hardly believe it has been 6 months already! What would I change if I could go back and redo those 6 months? In all honesty, not much, well I would have taken measurements, I never did it and wish I would have. I am now down 113 lbs. I saw my surgeon for my blood test results yesterday, everything was excellent. He said to continue as I have been and I will do fine. As I travel this journey farther from my surgery date I find it easier to eat anything, except sugar I avoid, and fatty things dont always sit well. I have more appitite and cravings, but I am trying to learn all this new stuff in my head, too bad they dont fix your head when they fix your stomach. As I type away here I realize that life ahead looks like a constant fix.......my mind, then all this hanging skin. If I never have the skin taken care of I will still be so happy and proud of who and what I am; a recovering obese woman who will never forget where she came from and what she has been through and how much better life is on this side of the 113 pounds instead of the other. We all need to remember what being obese feels like physically and mentally so we can have compassion for those still living in the fear, anguish, and trials of obesity. May we never become cynical or rude to those still suffering.......and as we celebrate our victories hold our heads high knowing we are getting stronger each day. God Bless Everyone as you celebrate a new anniversary this month. Janelle

Janelle, I just have to say WOW!!! you've done awesome. My six month Anv. will be on the 8th and I wish I could say I would be at 113. I think I will be somewhere around 100 lbs hopefully, (Ive been stuck for about 3 weeks), but like you said I will never forget where I came from and how it felt to be 305 lbs. Keep up the good work and keep posting!! Rhen

Janelle you are very right, I try to remember everyday that I am blessed to have been able to do this surgery and keep it all in stride. I hate it when people say don't you feel thin? No, I feel like a fat girl on a diet...feel thin? maybe in a few years but for sure not right now. WAY TO GO ON THE WEIGHT LOSS!!! Nicole 291/198/150?

Happy anniversary Janelle! I think you hit the target saying that you will always remember what it was like. Unfortunately I think that will be the case for most of us even when we are trying to feel normal. At least that is how I have heard it described by others who have been through the same thing. I hope I will be able to get rid of the negtative feelings I have had as a lifelong obese person, but nto enough to forget the struggles and to have compassion for those who's shoes I have walked in before. I am still heavy enough to qualify for the surgery even today....sad to say, but it is true. This will be a longer journey for some of us, but if I had it to do over again, I would in a heartbeat. 246 is so much easier to take than 325!!! Dina

Janelle, you are so right. It is so strange when people make comments about what we weigh now. I still have trouble because I'm still not comfortable yet with the weight lost. I guess what I mean is that I'm so afraid that I'll wake up one morning and I be as heavy as I use to be. I seen myself in the reflection of a window yesterday an didn't reconize myself. That was a weird feeling. Someone at work today said that I better not lose anymore weight that I was getting to thin, this was real hard to understand. Don't get me wrong I feel great and feel so blessed but I'm still so afraid that I'll gain it all back. Thanks for letting me unload. Edie 262/158/goal140

I find that I kind of "guard" myself before I look in a mirror, almost as if my heavy self is going to suddenly be back. I think getting rid of that inner flinch is going to take a long time. I think "recovering obese person" is the right concept. Focusing on the positive and compassion for that obese woman I was -- and the others I see on the street, oh how it jumps out at me and I feel such sorrow for what they are going through -- helps. As does making sure to have some fun. Gano