eating

i'm having a terrible time with eating. yes i know we all are but for some reason it has taken control of me again with feelings like i use to have all those years ago. those feelings were gone. along with the feelings is hunger. my stomach is empty it needs to be fed! i've taken a look at the feelings and am working on that. telling myself its stress, its work, its all the things that happen in life and not to eat. sometimes i am successful sometimes i am not. i'm still stayign away from sugar, mostly away from carbs but when the feeling**** sometimes i'll head right for pretzels. yesterday during a very busy day i stopped becasue i was hungry. the only thing i could find was pretzels. thinking back i should have been or would have been safer with the cashews in the can but the convience store had a small bag of pretzesl for 99 cents. thats what i choose. not thinking clearly during the daytime i ate that whole bag of pretzels! it was suppose to have 2 & 1/2 serviings and usually if I have something like that I eat 10 pretzels but i was getting in and out of the car and just munching. not paying attention until all of a sudden it was the afternoon and the bag was empty. i will admit there was a point where i thought gee that bag is almost 1/2 way gone. i ignored it. this past week i also bought a box of sugar free snack well cookies. a servinig is 3 cookies. the box was gone within two days. i was using 4 as a serving and kept eating them every couple of hours i was back for another serving. i'm afraid to get on the scale even though i know that this past week of cheats couldn't show up until the beginning of next week. i've not been working out because i've been sick. i need to get back to that too. i know what to do i need to get back to packing my lunch bag with a good protein lunch and snacks. i need to not stop at stores in between meals. i need to get back to excersizing once i'm feeling better. i need to not buy those dam snack well cookies. here we come to our 3 year anniversary. time to post abouthow well we are doing. i'm feeling like i'm heading for failure.

Pam, may I suggest instead of focusing so hard on what you're putting into your mouth, you instead spend just a little "Me" time and think about what's going on in your heart and your soul. How are you feeling, emotionally these days? Is it possible that you are trying to squash some feelings associated with emotional pain - sadness, lonliness, anxiety...you know, those feelings that we want to make go away so we numb them with whatever stops the pain, albeit temporarily. Just take a look at it, that's all. There is no failure here. Believe me, I've eaten plenty that should have never crossed paths with me. I don't see the point in laying it all out in a laundry list of dirty deeds. If you're feeling badly about something than you just need to think it through and decide on a course of action--and choices other than food--to help you feel better. And Karen is so right--don't isolate. It's the fastest ticket to self-sabotage there is...we're here for you. Always. Reenie

I tend to eat when I don't feel well. My grandmother was a feeder and when we were sick, she pulled out all the stops. It was just the excuse she needed to wait on us hand and foot and cook up huges pots of soup and other comfort foods. I could eat my weight in mashed potatoes and gravy if I had a cold. I now feel like I need to comfort myself with food if I'm sick. That's a hard habit to break. Thank God I don't get sick often or they'd have to cut me out of my house and bury me in a piano case. Isn't it funny how something so loving and nurturing turned out to be so bad for me all these years later? I think things will level out for you once you start feeing better. Hugs, Connie