Mad/Frustrated/Confused!!!

Marilyn - the last word in your post is HELP. You are feeling completely alone and defeated. There is no way you can be productive and pro-active in this mental state. You MUST connect with someone who can help you. I've never met you but I think I know enough about you to believe that you are a caring person. Start by caring about yourself. Get the help you need right now, screw the insurance, call a crisis center hotline and tell them what you are thinking and feeling. They will direct you to help, they will help you. The next post I read from you needs to tell us that you connected to someone, some agency, that is helping you. Anger and resentment never solve a damned thing. It's okay to say, "I can't do this anymore." But think of it this way - when a child says "I can't" -- we say, "Yes, you can, sweetie," and we hold out a hand until that child takes the steps necessary toward achievement and accomplishment. Take the steps...and right now, immediately, that means stop being so alone and connect with someone who can help you. Now. Cuz I'm saying, yes you can, sweetie. Good luck. M.

Thanks Reenie,I went to our local Mental Health today & they won't even let me talk to anyone till I have iNusrance. I told them the situation & they are trying to work around the denial I just got. Still have not heard anything. You are right I am alone in this & don't have anyone that seems to want to give a damn & I try with everything I have to stay positive but it sure is getting harder & harder. The harder I fight to stay in the battle the harder it gets. I just don't have much fight left. I did make another appt with my pcp for next week even though I will have to pay for it now. She has got to change the anti-depressants as I don't like this mood I am in one little bit or anything else right now. Thanks for caring at least you are not mad at me too!! Marilyn

marilyn...i don't think taht any of us are mad at you.......?????????? at least i know taht i am not as a former walmart employee-me--i urge you to go look at the posters in your lunch room at work-there should be one there with an 800 # or something for help thru walmart--it is private and they do NOT tell your manager etc....they cannot FIX everything that is wrong but they can help to direct you. as reenie said you can do this sweetie--here's my hand; take that step.... i hope you realize that you are NOT truly alone- you have us and you have your God! talk to HIm........

Marilyn, I'm certainly not mad at you. If my words seemed harsh, they were not meant to be. I read on your post to Reenie that you and your ex are getting back together. I wish you the best with that and hope that it all works out the way you need it to. Have a great weekend. Connie