October 11, 2006

Good morinng anyone who is reading! have you all looked at the dates of the alst posting? it was sept 28 or 29th. thats a good amount of time for no one to post any message. so i guess all of you with the exception of me is doing wonderfull. everyone is eating the right things, excersizing, and keeping that weight off. welll could you all please tell me your secret????? I do pretty good for a bit then back slide. This back slide has me concerned. I'm not getting back to normal and losing the stupid 5 pounds that i've gained. I'm not happy. I'm finding myself thinking like I did 120 pounds ago. O its only 5 pounds I can lose it when I want to. all those old excuses are in my head. It scared me. I've carried my lunch for a long long time now. Water, fruits, protein all the right things and I weigh and measure. But the past week I've found myself stopping at different places to pick up snacks. The first day it was becasue I'd left home earlier than usual and forgot something so I stopped and bought an extra protein bar. Then another day I was craving something salty so I stopped and got a bag of pretzels. Anolther day I was hungry hungry hungry my planned meal didin't fill me up even when I"d done the water load before hand. So i stopped and bought a box of the sugar free snack well short break cookies. cookes were my down fall and i ate more than the allowed portions listed on the box. the porton on the box is 3 i ate 6. it startled me when i stopped and figured how many i'd had and i threw the box in the trash. i feel like i'm on a downward spiral. the 5 pounds isn't gone and i'm afraid more will come on. i did get back to excersizng. went monday and tuesday back to curves. today i'm going to stop after work can't get there this mornning becasue of a meeting. i'm pledging to work at this daily. i'm going to not buy anything today that isn't on my menu plan. i'm going to swear not to eat any cookies no matter if they are sugar free or not. i'm goign to take an extra snack with me of an apple. i'm going to try to post daily to blog myself and remind myself what i'm eating. please feel free to cretique. today for breakfast - specail K protein cereal with fat free millk & 2 splendor packates snack - banana & cheese stick lunch - 3 oz of turkey, carrot sticks, 1/2 of a flat wrap snack - apple, cheese stick dinner - lean cuisine snack - fat free cool whip & sugar free jello wish me luck! silly me has just discovered those neat little emoticons. How did I ever post without them?

Pam, stop beating yourself up! Take it from the Queen of Self-Abuse; can't move forward productively and healthily if you are in woe-is-me, what-a-loser-I-am mode. Concentrate on health, not numbers. Concentrate on health, not numbers! How do you feel? Physically? Are you moving without wheezing and gasping for air? Are you light on your feet? Can you bend over to tie your shoes? As for snacking, I really believe Mike is on to something when he suggests some of us (particularly those of us in the frigid northeast) go into stash-the-carbs-and-fat-mode pre-winter. I'm right there with you right now, nothing satisfies me completely. So intead of trying to satiate--which I know is not possible, I am trying very hard to concentrate on keeping up my exercise, eating healthily as much as possible--and snacking on pretty good choices when I need to - I love lite popcorn, for instance so I chose that when I need something. My weight has gone up about 6 pounds over the last month, but I'm trying very hard not to stress it. The other very important thing to do is to commit yourself to doing something at least once a week that belongs to you and only you and that is enjoyable, something that sparks your passion - for me, it's my weekly riding lesson. Even though the work is hard - getting on all the riding gear, getting the horse into the barn, groomed, and tacked up - even though I don't enjoy that part of it, once I'm in the saddle and working hard, trying to learn this stuff, I love it. It's my time, it belongs to me. And I could not do this 3 years ago! Two years ago! That's living. Substitute your dependency on food with your passion for living. It's the only prescription I know for beating the hell out of this battle. As for your food choices, where are your vegetables? I'd say too many fruits and no vegetables. Take a look at that. Good luck, sweetie, we're here for you. M.

I agree with Reenie stop beating yourself up so badly. I also choose to eat popcorn It is so much better than the pretzels I was eating. I think I am alergic to the wheat in them. I have stopped eating them & the weight is dropping again. I am using that as a sign. So NO MORE PRETZELS for me (even at work). That's my new goal to win the battle on. Just take one thing a day to or week to work on than go to the next. When you put them all together it makes it too hard to quit all of them. Take care Pam & Have a great Week. Marilyn, the Bearlady

Hey Pam' Beating yourself up accomplishes nothing. I have plenty of "Bad Days" too. I just try not to follow up the bad days with more bad days. The worst thing you can do is go back to the old "I'm a failure, I give up routine"!! Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and make the next day a good one. As I've said before, the occasional bad day will not hurt you much, but giving up and stringing a lot of bad days together will certainly set you back a lot. Keep your chin up and keep fighting!! We're with you! Mike