I HATE DEPRESSION!!!

I am sorry but I have to talk and I have no one right now. I am so upset. I miss my family so badly. They live in Alabama and I live in Maryland. It hurts me so much to hear about all my nephews and nieces doing things and I can not be part of their life. It almost gets me sick. Well, it did get me sick this morning. I just threw up because I am so lonesome. My husband and I are the only ones up here (besides his family whom we have barely any association with) I have been looking at Hotwire.com to find maybe cheap plane tickets and go there for a week before I start my new job (On April 26) I was thinking April 17- 24. Yeah ..well...cheapest ticket is 200. I can't afford it!! Have you ever felt like leaving everything just to start all over? That is how I feel. Hubby, of course, tells me to think rationally. He says if I can come up with the money I can go. YEAH OK... LOL.. I hate asking my mom to borrow. I just feel like I need NEEEEED to see my family. I will not get to see them for a while. Everytime I go home it seems like everyone has grown more and more. It kills me. Any advice would so be appreciated. Thank you...sorry I just needed to vent and have a pity party. Love you all Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler and Bertha 25 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! -28 lbs!!!! Yayyyy A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!

Dear Bethany; I can never solve the riddles, but I have complete sympathy for how you're feeling. I too come from a tight knit family and community. My parents and family are in Western Canada and I live in Arkansas. This makes for one heck of a road trip (2300 miles - 32 hours driving). At times I feel like their lives have gone on without me, and then I talk to my mom and it is all a lot better. I don't have any advice for you other than if you really it want it bad enough, you can do it. Maybe mom could loan you the money and you could pay her back? Hope it gets better sweetie. Cheryl

Cheryl, thank you so much... I was thinking of asking mom to loan it to me and I would give her a post-dated check. Who knows. I just pray there is some way there. Arkansas and Canada are a lot further than Alabama and Maryland..actually twice as far...mine is 16 hours. I do feel as though I am the forgotten one sometimes ...I know I am not deep down but I have always been so close to my family and now it seems the longer I stay the more distant I feel. Thanks for your post. Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler and Bertha 25 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! -28 lbs!!!! Yayyyy A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!

First of all I want to tell you I am 57 years old and I have 17 grandchildren and 2 great grand children . I think you are selling your mother a little short. If you were my daughter and you told me how depressed you were and that you were home sick I would in her place be very happy to loan you the money. Most mothers and dads I know love helping their children. Just talk to her and promise to pay the money back. I am sure you could do that when you get your new job. Have a little faith in your mother. Talk to her she would love to be included in your life at this trying time. Sarah T

Bethany, get in your car and DRIVE home. It should only take you about 12 hours to get there. Go see your family. I bet they miss you as much as you miss them.

Yeah - I agree with everyone here to ask mom for the $$$ for now. Either that or you can wait until your first paycheck and just go for the weekend you have off. No need to apologize for sniveling over this - who can blame you? It's no fun to miss your family - I can relate! Dina

Hi Marchers...thank you all for your support..Jessica...I wish I could get out and drive but we only have one car and hubby needs to get to work lol. HOWEVER...I have great news...Sarah, you were right. I called my mom and started talking to her and she offered to pay my way and I will pay her back in May. She said she would pay all of it but she just can't afford it. She did offer to pay 50 dollars. My mom is so sweet. SO...I will be there April 10-17! I am so much happier now. I was crying to my mom and she said "Hold on, I know someone who will cheer you up" and she put on my 4yr old nephew on the phone. Did he cheer me up? LOL Not really...He said "Aunt Beth, I have not seen you in a long time and I miss you so much" and then he started crying. LOL My mom hurried and took the phone and was like OH NO I AM SO SORRY lol. Thank God for wonderful mothers!!! Anyways...I love you all and thanks for the support. Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler and Bertha 25 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! -28 lbs!!!! Yayyyy A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!

Reaqlly happy to see you got it all worked out. I wish I had seen this post earlier. What part of Alabama? My sister is outside of Montgomery, and when I go to visit I fly into Atlanta, cause it's cheaper than some of the flights to Montgomery, and non-stop to boot. It's only 3 hours from there and I can get picked up. Just a thought for next time. mgm

Bethany honey, my heart hurts for ya! It's so hard to be far from "home", isn't it? My DH of 26 years and I have never lived closer than a 5 hour drive from my family.(currently it's 9 hours) I used to cry ALOT those first few years of marriage.(when we lived a 24 hr drive away). I just want you to know that it does get better over the years, hang in there. Get a great rate on a phone service and CALL,CALL,CALL! And let your sweet mother loan you the money to come home...she wants to see you!!!

Bethany - I am so glad to hear that you are going home. The last few days for me have been horrid. I don't know if it is PMS or from the surgery, but every other moment I am balling like a baby. Like you all my family live 500-2000 miles away and I am all alone here. It is hard when you don't have anyone to support you, luckly you have your husband. Margaret