a little update on me...

Kym.. Please don't feel like you're alone.. People who are feeling badly don't post either because they don't feel like it or because they don't want to bring down the pre-ops or whatever. I have seen SO MANY people go thru what you describe. They should put it in the handbook on this surgery!!! Fat cells store estrogen and you're dumping estrogen and this makes you miserable.. It doesn't last forever. Hang in there. The jealousy thing is also totally normal and will pass.. especially when you jog past the food court on your way to buy new smaller clothes (and you will) There's a lady on OH who has lost over 300lbs in a yr and she talks about right after her surgery going thru exactly what you describe. She also said once it passed she was never better and has been happy ever since. A walk around the world begins with one step.... you've already taken leaps and bounds.. You're gonna be great!!!!!! Please post more and talk to us.. you'll feel better....

Kym, I have been going through a little bit of meloncholy myself. I have been kinda depressed the last couple of days. I drink out of a straw all the time because I was told that I had to sip. And like everyone has said, you hormones are all messed up. You had your surgery the same day that I did and soon you will be able to eat real food thats what I looked forward too. But you also have to remember that you did this to be healthier and that is what you should be thinking about, that's what I'm thinking about when I start crying and getting upset, that in the long run, I'm gonna be able to eat things again and I'll be healthier when I do!! ~Nicole

Kym, A lot of us are struggling with post op depression. I'm on antidepressants already and still fighting it. I am told it will get better, but talk to your doctor about getting or increasing the dose for a while. You are grieving. It is kind of like culture shock where everything familiar gets removed and replaced with strangeness. The self-comfort moves you used to make without thinking are no longer available to you and you have not had time to establish new ones. It is exhausting and frustrating. The only thing that is going to cure it (and yes, there is a cure!) is time to emotionally adjust. You can somewhat accelerate that adjustment by thinking your way through it. Preplan your eating and drinking so that you don't have to make "automatic" decisions. List on paper non-food things you can do to pamper yourself to draw from instead of comfort food (Bubble baths and nail polish are two of mine). Getting outside into the sunlight also helps, especially with some exercise. Some days, frankly, the blues win with me. But on most days I work my way through it and do OK. It helps me to realize that a lot of people in the world are struggling with other bigger issues that I am not having to deal with. If I can focus outward, it blesses me. I'm sorry it is tough. I am told this will pass with time. Joy