Life! yo yo me.

Hello everyone! Things are going ok here. Still fighting with the darn 5 pounds. Truely has me stumped. I'm walking drinking my water watching calories weighing and measuring food. still can't seem to lose the 5 pounds. I want to be back at my lowest which was 157. Now I'm at 162 and at my height 5'7" i shouldn't complain. I'm wearing sizes 10 & some 8's I feel great. But why can't i get rid of that 5 pounds. I'm not going to look that different its only 5 pounds. But, (isn't there always a but???) my weight ins' tin the 150's its in the 160's. My BMI isn't want it was. I liked being "normal" now it says I'm slightly over weight. NO! NO! NO! I dont' wanna be anyting near or close to or at over weight. Ok so I cna't have everything. NO! NO! NO! I want EVERYTHING! I'm eating 1400 calories a day give or take a 100. I write it all down and I am honest about the amounts. Protein, good. carbs, good. Maybe I'm retaining weight becasue of stress? is that possible? My oldest son got married 5 weeks ago. It was a wonderful wedding. I was stressed for several reasons. But that went really well. I had a great time. So that little stressful event is done. Then my sister had been very ill we dind't know if she'd make it to the wedding. She got out of the hospital and made it just in the knic of time. I broke up with my financee 2 weeks after my son's wedding. it was the right thing to do and I dont regret the break up I do regret that things couldn't have been different. I still miss him. Then mother was ill. She's in her late 80's and this is the way it will be for a while. She's out of the hospital doing good. During all of this work has its very own stress level that can't compare to the other things. Where each of those has a percentage of stress that adds to my levels. work has its very own level. It is level one in the stress scale. All the other stresses are maybe 40% out of 100 and work is at 60%. AGRRGGGGGG Thats it for catch up!

O.K Pammy Slow down take a deep breath & say to yourself. I Like Myself. I love myself. I won't fret over what I don't have. Start looking at what you have accomplished. What you can do now that you could not do before. Start waking up every morning & telling yourself. I LOVE LIFE & it will start to change your attitdude about everything including your wieght. If you are not on some kind of anti-depressant, get on something. It sounds like depression has set in along with all the stressful stuff of late. I have been there, so I can relate my friend. Be good to yourself. You are doing the right things on a everyday basis, so if the attitude gets better I bet the weight will start falling again. Hang in There!! Marilyn, the Bearlady