Never mind...

I logged onto the computer and thought I'd come here and update on how things are going in Connie's world. I was going to tell you how hectic things are at work and talk about how I never get time for myself these days, gave myself food poisoning yesterday, yada, yada, yada...... I wasn't really paying attention to what I was doing and accidently clicked on a link for the Memorial Page here at ObesityHelp. I found myself scanning through profiles of people who were so full of hope for a new life. People who were scared, but desperate to get their lives back. People who were fighting insurance and fighting for life. Bad knees, sleep apnea, GERD, oxygen tanks, aching bodies and low self-esteem. Parents just like me who wanted to be around long enough to watch their children grow up or to be able to play with their grandchildren. I'm ashamed of myself. Instead of whining and moaning, I need to be thankful that I'm alive to clean the poop off the rug from my foster puppy. I'm able to get up off the floor without effort. I got to see my son grow into a fine young man and I can can kiss my kid and tell him I love him, even though he leaves 1/2 empty cans of Coke all over the place when he comes to visit. Before I had this surgery, I was certain I wouldn't live to see 50. As I close in on my 46th year on the planet, I know that I'm in better health than I was at 30 and I'll probably see 100. I was going to tell you of all the nuisances of my life, but never mind. Just let me tell you how grateful I am to be here and thank you all for being one of my blessings in life. Love you all, Connie (Who's going to go walk the dog and appreciate the cooler night temperatures)

How True my friend. With all of my struggles of late I am also thankful I am not 360 pounds & trying to get through all of this. Thanks for the insight, again. You still put up a great read. Stay in touch always. Marilyn, the Bearlady :wave

Connie - you always have a way of putting things in perspective that speaks loud and clear. There but for the grace of God go I.... For all the negatives in this life, I am happy to *have* my life to feel some angst in because with that comes joy and confusion and hope and fear and enchantment and all the things that tell us we indeed do exist. Really makes you put it all in perspective....thanks again you brilliant and beautiful woman! Dina