need to vent I am so depressed

Hi Fellow Marchers, Woke up this morning in a very sad mood.fighting with depression ,nerves and on top of all that my sugar is still very high still in the 400's I think it has something to do with me being Stressed I eat alot when I am this way Thank God my Dr. doesn't put us on any special diet before surgery we eat what every we want.I think I am worried because my Son who is 18 would rather work the day of my surgery instead of being at the hospital with my daughter. you would have to know my daughter she has the biggest heart and wears it on her sleeve.my daughte rand 1 very very special friend is all I have in the means of support beside this sight here if I didn't have this to come to I would go crazy.My daughter is my great friend and I love her so much but I hate the thought of her being out there waiting all alone.she is only 21 and she worries alot.I will be going into the hospital on Sunday night my surgery is schedule for 11 am if you would all keep me in your prayers I would appricated it. I have Ask my daughter April to please post on Monday night an let you all know how I am doing she said she would try.Since I still don't have an Angel I hope she will. For all of you interested I will be at the Anderson Area Medical Hospital in Anderson SC.THE NUMBER IS 864-261-1000 and just ask for Dawn Pineda room.there is a toll free number and once I get it I will post it. Thank you all for letting me vent you just don't know how much this groups means to me and how I Thank God for leading me here. will keep all of you in my prayers for the once already on the losing side I hope you have a speedy recover and the rest of us will be praying for us to have the same. These Marcher are Saints. Love Dawn

Awwww Dawn, (((((((HUGS))))))) I have 3 natural children, the oldest (the teacher) is the one saying all will be well, she will say I am glad this is happening, and you will see this is all for the good. The middle one (the pilot) when I told him they thought I have had a heart attack, in the middle of telling him, the phone rang, and bang, he was out the door, he is the one that does not want to hear any adverse news, denial mode. Sounds like your son, I don't think for a minute that they don't care, it's that they don't know how to deal with a situation, so they will act indifferent, or run from it or do what would be natural to them, and in your case, it is to go work. Number 3 child, is the TV anchor, she is like your daughter, worried sick about me, has to be there, and is always there. Bottom line, they all love you/me, they just have very different ways of showing it, and we have to read between the lines. Hope this helps. Know that I will be praying for you. Love, Peace and Prayers, Betty

((((Dawn))))) I am sorry you are going through this. I wish your daughter had someone to be with her but everything will do great. I am happy for you and your day is coming soon!!! God Bless you and I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers!!! Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler 9 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! -25 lbs!!!!!! A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!

Hi Dawn, Please just know that people deal with this surgery in their own ways. Oftentimes a person will not even know how they'll react until a situation like this comes up. Your son is probably just dealing with his fear the only way he knows how. Everybody has different tools, you know? You should not be worrying about such things like what will keep your daughter busy while she is waiting. You take care of yourself and let everyone else do what they need to do. So she brings a book or some magazines, maybe she'll go to the chapel, maybe she will call a girlfriend to discuss it with her. My suggestion is to put on some soothing music like Enya or classical and just sit quietly and do some visualization. Imagine yourself healthy and slim and able to do fun things with your family! Imagine a speedy recovery - imagine the day you'll actually look forward to going swimming or getting on the treadmill! If you can take a bath, that's a great idea too. Even a warm shower will help soothe you. Have a cup of hot herbal tea and really breathe in the steam. I just know you will come through beautifully but for your health pre and post-op you've got to get your anxiety in check. You may need to have your PCP prescribe some short-acting tranquilizer like Valium for you. Going into surgery this agitated is a recipe for disaster. Please PLEASE take good care of yourself. We've all got to learn how to prioritize ourselves and not take on more than we're meant to. We can't overworry for ourselves and we can't insist on doing eveyone else's worrying for them too! By the way, I am from Greenville so I know your location. Best wishes from one Southerner to another! Eve

Hi Dawn: Sorry you're stressed about your son not being at the hospital while you're in surgery. It may because I'm a nurse or just practical but when my Mom had surgery I took her to the hosp., settled her in and instead of waiting in there I went to her house and cleaned it. When I returned later that day one woman whose Mom was also in surgery said, Boy waiting here, all day, was harder than if I cleaned my whole house". I had to laugh about that to myself. Now my surgery is scheduled for the 18th and I have to be at the hosp. at 6am. Since my son in law drives past there to work he will drop me off. I told my daughter that there is no sense in her waking up early, waking her baby and sitting around for hours with nothing to do. She will be there when I get settled in a room and she'll help me walk and do the other things I will need help with. I also told her not to buy flowers - I prefer to have them in my home when I can enjoy them. And I do not want any visitors. As a nurse I can assure you that the first 3 days after abdominal surgery that there are very few people who want company, but that's when all the visitors arrive. It also is true that on days 4-10 recovering pts. would enjoy some company but by then everyone has visited and gone back to work and even the flowers have wilted. We all have different ways of looking at things and different ways of coping. I just thought I'd share mine with you.

HI Dawn, You're gonna do great!!! Your daughter can bring a friend and visit with other patient families... she'll be fine.. even better than if you're son is sitting there all nervous and upset and she has to keep him calm ya know? We will be checking on you and waiting for news.. We know it's going to be very good news indeed... Hang in there... we're here for you.. Tell your daughter when she's in the chapel she should listen closely to all the Marchers lifting you up in prayer along with her.. she won't be alone and neither will you!!!! Sinseerlee, Kathy Offishal Marchers Cheerleader Captain Flatulence Monitor Angel to the Queen "It's time to throw down the pom poms and get into the game!"