15 more days!!!

At this point I don't know if to feel happy or nervous. I am feeling a bunch of emotions all at once. I am happy because I feel that this surgery will change my life not only physically but mentally. I have struggled with the weight on my body, but I have for sure struggled with it mentally. What I mean by mentally is trying all these years to accept that I am bigger than the average person and that if anybody is going to accept me or LOVE me they would have to do so as me being the bigger than average person. Okay - well I have fooled myself enough and I feel in my heart that I will be a much happier person being at an average weight or at least a healthy weight!!! I thank GOD everyday for giving me life and I know that he will continue to do so after surgery, but sometimes I can't help but think differently now that my surgery is closer. I have learned so much from this website. I have to say that during my consults with the surgeon I had very few questions because I have educated myself through this website. Thank you everyone - who has supported me on this "crazy" journey of mine!!!!!

You are right in saying that this is not about making people love you. Any who will love you thin but not thick are not really loving you. But it sure is about feeling better, physically and emotionally! Glad you are here Edna! Joy

Hi Edna, Yes indeed, this whole journey has been a roller coaster ride for me also. I think you will do fine with the mental part of this weight loss, as you have God and he will continue to be at your side after surgery as He is now before your surgery Betty

Edna, you will feel so much better after this surgery. I had the surgery on March 2nd and you could not believe how much my self esteem and self worth has increased. I know before this surgery I was worth a lot but I didn't feel it. I am starting to feel that again. People are already saying "your face looks slimmer" or "You look great" That is the best feeling in the world!! You will do great!! Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler 8 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY!