8 days post op

and I'm in horrible pain...I can't eat a thing, my head is so fuzzy I can;'t hardly type this letter. been sucking donw the sugar freee popsycles. I want to rewind my life back 9 dyas and NOT have this done i hpoe things get better but if they dont i guesss i've really screwed up. i was in ICU for 5 dyas and in semi pvt 2 days. knocked out most of the time with pain meds...I"ve cried for the past 3 days,.GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE/.

Hang in there Honey! Just keep your focus on why you had the surgery and know that this too shall pass. Have you called your doc? That might be your best move. I'm thinking good thoughts and hope only the best for you. Gayle Queen of Yarn Balls

Hi Melissa, I think you should call the Dr.. this is awful and not at all the norm... As for feeling regret and being depressed over this .. no one can blame you and it's all perfectly understandable.. PLUS you are losing weight and fat cells hold estrogen and when you start losing the estrogen it causes depression as well... I am so sorry you've had such a bad time but you're past it and you're home.. This will get better... Please call your Dr.. there may be more that can be done for you.. Thoughts and Prayers headed your way... Sinseerlee, Kathy Offishal Marchers Cheerleader Captain Flatulence Monitor Angel to the Queen "It's time to throw down the pom poms and get into the game!"

Melissa -- CALL YOUR DOCTOR. That's first and foremost. Now, I'm gonna tell you that I've already warned everyone that the words "WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?" and "WHERE WAS MY HEAD TO THINK I SHOULD DO THIS!?!" will be the first two phrases out of my mouth. I told 'em I'll probably really feel that way, but to just ignore it 'cuz I'm only reacting to the immediate pain and situation. MANY MANY post-ops feel the same way...'til they start healing and perking back up. Then they say they'd do it again in a heartbeat. I'm praying for you. This WILL pass, but really, call your doctor, 'kay? Kimmer Queen of the Niners, Instigator to All Marchers, High Priestess of Giggles Zero-minus-13.31 hours 'til NPO!!

I am so sorry you are having trouble! Obviously, it is not supposed to go this way and that is why you were in ICU so long. What is your doctor telling you to do? I hope you live close to his clinic. Its OK to cry, but don't give up. Things WILL get better. Try to keep drinking and sucking on ice or popcycles. Dehydration will only make things worse. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You can come here to vent any time... Joy

Melissa, I am so so sorry you are having problems!!! I pray you will feel better. Please call your doctor because he may need to see you. Let us know something!! Bethany AKA Da Offishal Riddler 6 Days into NewPouch and feeling great! A riddle a day will keep the Marchers pounds AWAY! :jump

I 2nd call your doctor. Sounds like you need something to calm you down.I will be praying for your comfort during this time.

Melissa, You need to call your doctor. They would want to hear from you, and they are waitng for you to call them. Dont put it off any longer, many times there are things they can do to help you and you will 100% better. Putting off things only makes it harder for the Dr to turn things around in your favor. By now you should be feeling physically better, many have the depression, but the physical stuff should be better. I will say many prayers for you.......let us know in a day or two how you are doing. Take Care, Janelle lap rny 3-1-04 -25 lbs and doing GREAT!

Melissa, I am 6 days post-op and while I didn't have to be in ICU (I'm so sorry for you!) I still feel lousy. The rolling painful gas inside makes it hard to find any kind of comfortable position. I have had the feelings you've had. I have been depressed and have been telling myself, "I need things to improve quickly so that I don't feel I've made a huge mistake." I can hardly eat anything, I'm not nearly keeping up with the fluids. Even taking pain medicine hurts because it makes me nauseous to swallow the pill bits. Today I have had my first BM and it seems to be turning into diarrhea. I totally agree, the sugar free popsicles have been a life-saver. I just so desperately need something to cool down my mouth and give me some moisture. I agree that you should call your doctor if you still feel scared and awful. They may suggest that you come back in to the hospital so they can keep an eye on you. I just KNOW there is going to be a day soon when we will know we made the right decision. I have lost ten pounds so far and it hasn't even been a week but I don't even care. All I want is to feel better. Also, I thought the surgery would sort of make me not think about food. When I left the hospital they wheeled me past the hospital bakery/cafeteria, and I just wanted to eat so badly!!! My boyfriend asked what he could get me as soon as we got home and I said, "Fettucini Alfredo and garlic bread." I want to eat!!!! We are going to have to learn some new habits that will replace food. I know I am just bored and have too much time on my hands. I no longer can have the high that I got from preparing and eating food. I have to find what will be a substitute for me - probably it will have to be several things. I do feel stronger each day, but I'm still very uncomfortable. It isn't suture pain - It's the gas they pumped me with that is painful. It really helped me to get out and see the sun and smell the fresh air. Sitting in front of the tv in a dark room just makes me feel lousier. I hope you will feel better very soon! Eve Also, I've been reading these books over again - The Barbara Thompson and Carnie books. I think they gloss over the post-op uncomfortableness/pain too much. Maybe I'm glad they did? I don't know.

1ST CALL YOU DR. I HAD SURGERY THE DAY AFTER YOU AND NOT IN PAIN,UNCOMFORTABLE BUT NO PAIN. NOW I AM VERY WEAK AND LIGHTHEADED. I THINK THAT IS DUE TO THE LOW AMT OF CALORIES. I WISH YOU THE BEST. WE WILL GET THRU THIS. KEEP US POSTED. LADONNA