Feeling my own Mortality

Today sucks! Last night I learned that a friend died Monday night. She was ill and had been for a long time but still why her? I guess we can say why anyone but still! Then that got me to thinking about myself (which makes me feel selfish to no end) and what might happen with my surgery. My husband has had a whiny teary mess of nerves to deal with. He tells me that won't happen and that I will get to spend the night in our new home and that I will wear those size 28 jeans that I found today. Also affecting me is that we are going through stuff that we have had stored for a long time. Throwing a lot of it away. I feel like some of these things I just don't want to part with but then again I can't find a good reason to keep them, other than I don't wanna chuck them. I mean crap this junk is MINE! I spent years collecting it but unfortunately we won't have the space for it. With each box I open am bombarded by memories and when I have to throw those away I kinda feel like some little part is lost forever. I know that I stand a better chance of living if I have the surgery and that I really don't need that stuff, if I did it would be here in the house being used and not stuffed in a box waiting for me to look at it again before I put it away again! Thoughts? Suggestions?

Just a big (((((((((((((((((( HUG ))))))))))))))))) surgery sis Hugs, Mo

If it has been in boxes for a while..then you do not need it...so I have heard. But that does not take the sentimental value from things. Just remember, you are on a new journey and in 6 months from now, some of it won't matter. You will be wondering what you were so worried about. I think it is normal to worry when a close friend dies that you were near and dear to,,wondering why it happened and to realize it will happen to us sometime. We all hope it will be later in life. It does make you look at your life and what is happening to you. I was once told to live each day like it was your last. That is hard to do but maybe we all need to put this in perspective and make sure we have all we need in place before our surgeries. It is God's wake up call for all of us. When it is our time, we will go no matter what we are doing. We need to be a prepared as we can all be for that time. We could be driving a car or walking down the street. Remember. this too will pass. God Bless you and keep you in his Grace.

Not sure if it will help, but heres a big (((huggggg))) Misty

Hi Gayle, I am sorry for your loss.. that's always too sad and it does get stuck in your mind about why it happened to someone so nice and sweet and on and on .. basically why did it happen to someone you loved?? I don't know any answers to make it feel better but I am sorry you're going thru this right now As for the boxes.. You should watch "Clean Sweep" on TLC.. they are ruthless and the homes always look so nice when they are done.. My sis in law came over and helped me "sweep" and I got rid of so much and felt better.. Even now I think "When's the last time I used/needed this?" and if the answer is too far back than it goes to "THE HEAP" .... Keep what you absolutely have to and try to part with the rest. Sinseerlee, Kathy Offishal Marchers Cheerleader Captain Flatulence Monitor Angel to the Queen "It's time to throw down the pom poms and get into the game!"

Gayle, I am sorry to hear about your friend. I know how you feel about your stuff. Our house is on the market and hubby is pushing REALLY HARD to get rid of all this s... before my surgery. Timing is everything they say. I have been feeling no real anxiety but reading tonights posts made me think.... what if they change my date.... we have a DO NOT SHOW on our listing and I farmed out all four kids for three days..... But, not to worry. God has all of this under control. Your dear friend is out of pain and hanging out with the good guys.... love and hugs andie