In for a visit

hello marchers! i've been one of those lurkers *****ad everyones postings but haven't have the energy to post. my engagement is finally broken and it looks like the end of the relationship is here. i'm very sad about it but know that it is for the best. it woudn't have worked out at all. my oldest son gets married in less than a month. i've got the mother of the groom dress, shoes and even a classey pocketbook all set & good to go! now just have to find a suitable foundation undergarment cause the classey dress iv'e got is verylow in the back. got to do this right so my cheapness might have to go out there and spend a good chunk of moola on a fancy bra that i won' twear more than once! arrgg that bugs me oh well gotta do what ya gotta do. my daughter got engaged. did i tell you all that? her finance is whisking her off to NH in the same town tha my mother and sister live. he has started a business there and is doing very well. they move the end of summer. i'm heart broken. i'mve very close to my daughter and can't stand the thought of not having her in the same town. i'm dealing but having a very hard time of it. part of me wants to sell my condo and move up north too. then the smart part says wait just a minute. they need their newly engaged time to gether. let them be. i can always retire up north right? he's a nice young man. he will take good care of her and he wants children! OOOOO YES! i do not think its right of him to hold out the grandchild card to ME when its just like putting a carrot in front of a donkey's nose. if that happens i just might have to retire early! my youngest son is goign to do the move to NH to be closer to his sister plus he's always wanted to move back up north. it really is gods country up there. he likes the cold. can you imagine??? he likes the people and he loves his sister. the thought of losing all of my children has me tied up inside. again having a hard time this summer dealing with all of these changes. but deal i will. still at the 5 extra pounds and holding. counting calories, fats, protieins, carbs all that stuff but still not losing. i have got to get out there and excersize to move things along but am working at the dealing issue of the kids. so i'm playing vegetable which means i usually come home from work lay down on my bed and watch tv. not very productive at home! though i did clean the cat box this weekend! i miss everyone and hope that all is well with each and everyone of you. good luck and god bless, pammy maybe i should do a nose ring? i like it!

Hi Pam, Sometimes when we make that decision to break apart a relationship, it turns out to be the best thing we ever should have done. We don't always think so at first. I faught it for years. But, After I finally did it, wow, what a difference in everything. I have been by myself for abourt 4 months now, & just now started looking around for maybe a new possiblility out there. Till now had to find out who I was again, before could even go there. Hang in There, I know you will be just fine. God has a way of opening new doors, when the old ones close when we least expect it. Marilyn, the Bearlady