MY FEB 2009'rs, WE'RE HITTING MONTH TEN! IS ANYONE AS FRUSTRATED AS I AM...

Hey my surgery month siblings!  December marks our ten month surgiversary and I am frustrated as all hell right now. 

Mathematically, factoring my daily calorie deficit, I should be so far past goal and even past my ideal weight right now.  Instead, four months after being less than 30 lbs away at my six month visit, I still have half of that yet to loose.  I am meticulous in managing my program.  Using 3800 calorie deficit per pound of fat loss I should be hospitalized for anorexia by now.  I've been kicking into overdrive to bust through theses last fifteen pounds since 11/22.  Instead of a loss I gained 1.8 lbs.  AAArrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!

My metabolism is a cluster fkcu, I know this.  But DAMN, do I ever get a break?  This is just crazy!  I should have lost 5-6 lbs but I gain nearly 2 lbs instead.  I am very discouraged right now.  Vent over. 

On the up side, my size six jeans are baggy in the ass and I just bought a dress in a size four.  My first little black dress that is really little.   I've always been relatively compact for my weight but the size six surprized me and the four is down right shocking.  I'm starting to get the 'stop loosing' comments,  However, my one comorbidity, high blood pressure, still requires two medications.  Most days its normal; but, I still have spikes to stage two hypertention levels fairly often.  I need to get to goal to reduce my stroke risk even if I end up looking like a scarecrow.  

So how is everyone else doing?  I'm so glad to hear many of you are at or near your doctors goal and your own personal goals.  Scale and/ or non scale.   I love hearing when someone gets where they want to be.  Shout it out folks.  Brag a little.  Hell brag a lot cause we deserve it.  Our bragging rights have been hard earned!  So tell me, what's going on with you Feb 2009 peeps?  

I feel your pain! This point is so freaking frustrating!!! Looking back I've only lost 11 pounds total these last two months. At the rate I am going I won't even hit my own personal goal by my one year mark!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!  I don't understand how the weight isn't coming off anymore! I wish I had a little black dress in single digits! You rock!  I didn't have any comorbidities, I had this surgery so I didn't develop any. I now just have extreme exhaustion!

Thanks luv.    Exhaution is tough.   Do you know the cause?  How are your labs?  Fatigue can be from so many causes, serious and not.  Hope you're looking into this. 

Looks like everyone is "plugging along"! I had a few weeks these last couple of months where I teetered back and forth with the same 2 fricken lbs! It was very frustrating. I won't reach Doc's goal of 145 by one year, but should be somewhat close. I keep telling myself that I need to set a new goal, of maybe 135, but that may be unrealistic. Of course, if I can justify having my panni removed, then that should be a few lbs. right there! I wonder how I could weight that .... I know, a bit over the edge there. But seriously, can ya get the image? ewww...

I'm in size 12 now, and top and bottom are same size (this is a first, as my top has always been smaller than the bottom...go figure).  My BMI still has me as overweight, but hell....better than SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY YOU ARE GOING TO DIE GIGANTICALLY MORBIDLY OBESE.  I will take overweight....and smile about it. I will embrace the overweight...

My co-mobids (high cholesterol and blood pressure) were resolved within the first few months post op. My labs have been good, so I'm only taking OTC vitamins, B-12, Calicium Citrate. My hair loss, which seemed like a lot to me, stopped around month 6. Luckily I have a lot of hair, so no harm, no foul, no bald spot.

I definatley have the flying squirrel thing happening. I blogged about it several months ago. My inner thighs, well, ick. My bat wings, not too bad unless I extend my arms, and draw attention to the area by intentionally flapping, or imitating a hang glider.  My abdomen, or "panni", is not too terribly bad (with clothing on), but overall, I'm looking okay. I just don't walk around outside the house nekkid!

Coming up on the one year anniversary of the death of my dad, (12/29-08), so the holidays for the most part, have been anti-climatic...quiet.  I'm planning my 3rd 5K this weekend, but it is supposed to be colder (its fricken cold outside at 8 a.m.! Like around 15 degrees!!!) so I'm not sure I will be as excited for this run as the previous ones.

Well, thats about it for me...I posted pics under another post, but wanted to hop on the chain here and say WAY TO GO MSW AND ALI! AND HAPPY SURGIVERSARY TO ALL YOU OTHER FEB 9-ERS!

HUGS,
Kathy

I saw your pics and you look so good.  I must agree that overweight instead of obese is a milestone.  Good luck on your next run. 

My WL has been slow from day one, so this is nothing new for me.  I am just so thankful it is still going down!  Last two weeks nothing and then a 3 lb drop overnight.  At about the 6 month mark, I decided, the WL was going to do what it was going to do. (like an entity all itself!)  I just keep doing what I am supposed to do and it will eventually come off.  My support group leader only lost 80 lbs from surgery and the rest (100lbs more ) came off over the next several years through EXERCISE!  UGH!  Not what I wanted to hear, for sure.  Our bodies LOVE to cling to the FAT!

Glad its stil moving even if slowly.  I'm a big believer in exercise and always have been.  Exercise makes your body look good even when you're obese.   My workout capacity is already at its max so there is no help fo me there. 

For both of us I hope "eventually" is not too far off.   

To me it sounds like you're rockin' it.  My highest was 387 and I got down to 315 on surgery date (2/9/09).  Right now I'm at 221 and have only lost 20lbs in the last 5 1/2 months!  The scale is going no where and yes I'm much healthier now than what I was at almost 400 lbs. I guess I just expected more from this surgery.  I'm assuming losing 72 lbs through diet and exercise (mostly diet adjustment though) prior to RNY has something to do with the fact that my body doesn't want to give it up easily now.  I just know that a 5'3" woman at 221 lbs is still really fat and it makes me feel like poop!

I haven't been on this site for a while and it sounds like I need to get back into the mode of having support during this journey.  People tell me how "good" I look but I can't see it.  I think it's because I really didn't know how I looked on the outside to other people before starting down this road.  I'm having mental issues with my appearance.  We went Christmas shopping at a big mall in Portland last week and my girls were having a great time trying on dresses, my husband was looking for some new clothes and I was happy.  That is until my husband asked me, "Aren't you going to get anything?"  I told him I don't do clothes and my mood plumeted!  I'm trying to figure myself out right now and I now I must sound like a basket case but I would love to know if anyone else is dealing with the same types of issues.  If you are, what are you doing or have done that's helped you?
 

Take care everyone, it sounds like you're all doing awesome!

387 to 221 is amazing.  I can imagine your frustration.  I'd never thought about how prior wl affects post op results.  I lost 50 pre op but it took years.  Perhaps thats the cause of my slow wl too.   

Its time for you to start doing clothes.  Looking good helps us to feel good about ourselves.  Do the clothes, hair, makup, the works. 

I am feeling you on the body image issues.  At my high of 287 lbs I did not feel fat or even look at myself as obese.  Now I feel huge, some days more so than others.   I am particular about fit so I replace clothing as my size changes.  Although I'm buying clothes in single digit sizes its like its not real, just an optical illusion.  I'm struggling with being "averaged" sized if that makes any sense at all.