Thinking About Goal

I can see it but its still so far. 

A lot of us Feb 2009'ers are in range, having lost half of what we wanted to loose or more.  I had 15.8 lbs to go but that was increased to 28.8 lbs as my goal was lowered.

I know its irrational but the added 13 lbs scare the **** out of me.  Friends on another board suggested I think of it in increments.  I need to loose 7.2 lbs per month, less than 2 lbs per week to hit my target for my 02/04/2010 annual follow up.  I can do this, can't I?  I know I can and I know I must. 

Its really messing with my head.  I find myself tempted by things that did not bother me before.  Things I haven't eaten in years pre wls.  Is anyone else fighting self sabatage?

Except for some mystery water retention I am loosing better than I have at any time since wls.  My body water is up 7 lbs yet the scale is up only 3 lbs which should mean an estimated 4 lb fat loss under it all. 

Is anyone else obsessing?

me me me! I am! I am so obessed and I have to be honest last night i slipped and snacked on cheesies i know...wtf was i thinking! I know i started weighting on the higher side of the most feb 09ers, starting at 462 pounds, As of today i am now 316! I am so close to hitting 299 i could barf, not literally... you know what i mean! We need to do this, and we are both not alone! we need to refocus! My doctors goal for me is 220, I plan on getting down to 180 thats my ultimate goal, my personal one! I am figureing all this loose skin will weight about 30-40 pounds! I am so excited and it seems so far away, and i just want it to happen. I literally had to get rid of my scale because i am so bad, so I walk to my mothers ever couple of days to weight in, and when the scale done move, i feel so down but i know when its not moving the inches are! We can do this!!

Whew!  Glad someone else will own up to theses feelings too.  I know its not just us.  It just can't be. 

Its amazing how much you've lost and how far you've come.  Its as though having some success already is an anti climax.  Where is the mental push to the next level?

About two weeks back I had chips and oreos.  This week its single serving tubs of pringles.  I make sure I do double the calories in additional exercise burn when I stray.  I've started adding some leeway by burning the calories first then indulging.  I'm trying not to let this set me back from reaching goal on time. 

It was always hard but its getting even harder.  I thought getting accustomed to this would ease the struggle some.  Eventully become second nature.  It only seems to increase in difficulty.  I'm just not hitting my stride. 

Everything tempts me now.  Television is torture.  I don't even eat cheese yet pizza commercials are making me crazy.    I'm hoping goal and maintenance will be easier for me.  Not having to keep an appreciable calorie deficit should help.  But how do I get through now?

I am always tempted with foods from my past. But I will keep it real. I use to eat subs all the time wrong kind of food. But once in a while maybe once a month or even two or three if I am craving it I will eat it otherwise I will not think of anything else. Instead of getting a medium or large I get myself a kids value meal and thats enough to get the craving out of me. A lot of the times I seriously don't even finish the food. My nutritionist told me I am not on a diet any longer its now life changes and changes I need to go ahead and make myself. I use to have cravings for chocolate and many sweets as well. I dont touch chocolate anymore or soda and I seriously have made the changes to the sweets as well. I think I have one sweet a month weather it may be sherbert or a muffin. Otherwise I am eating the best I can possibly be eating. Sometimes I feel I lack protein but I started drinking shakes again to make sure I am getting in the protein I seriously need if I feel I am lacking in that. I have 54 pounds more to go to get to my goal weight and only 30 more to get to my surgeons goal weight. I know I can do it and I will succeed in all I choose to do. I am looking forward to the rest of my journey I know I have come a long way especially knowing I have lost 77 pounds and many inches already.

Your nuts perspective is common but in my reality it is a diet.  I'm doing everything one does on a diet.  The difference is this diet is forever. 

I'm good with the forever part.  It is an accepted part of wls.  The issue I have right now is totally unexpected bottomless pit syndrome.  Like I want to eat anything and everything just because I can't and shouldn't.  Never have I experinced anything like it before. 

I am obsessing! It's horrible....I feel like my whole life is focused around weight loss. I have been slacking lately. I need to get back in the gym. I am disappointed in myself. I know I have done great in 7 months but somehow feel like I should be down more weight by now.

You've lost more than most of us.   I think you're doing well. 

I'm 6.3 lbs behind where I want to be but its due to metabolism issues and I am catching. My surgeon thinks I'm doing well especially since wl is harder for me than most.   I've got the gym down because it was already habit since my teens.  The difference is instead or enjoying it, I'm working out for calorie burn to maintain the right deficit.

Thats why this is a diet for me.  If I do not balance my intake, excercise and rmr for the right deficit level I start gaining even on low calories. 

I think we're similar in this fear of screwing things up.  Just going off the deep end and giving in to food desires.  Sure I can do something else besides eat and I do.  Still, temptation remains all around me and unlike in the past, even at 285 lbs, I can't seem to tune it out.  Why is this happpening now?

 

At least all you RNY'ers are close to goal.  I'm only suppose to realistically look at a 50 pound per year loss.  So, I have already hit that.  I have to look at little goals or go nuts.  My big one is to be under 200  I haven't even been able to get there yet.

Good Luck to everyone!

I can't imagine 50 per year when I have 100 to loose.  You've done so well loosing so much already.  Even after rny, I'd go crazy without mini goals in bpounds and size. 

Yep my doc said I should be looking at losing the 124 pounds over a two year period.  If I do I will be happy but, it is hard to keep positive when you all will be doing it in a year or less.